Yay~ :D Lousy puns which no one understands in my titles.
Damn, I've not seriously studied for the past week and 2 days. Now I'm slightly worried but as some people I know would say, 爽感~! xD
Seems I don't take to stress overload well. Seems the more stressed I am, the more I withdraw, which makes me more depressed and repressed. Internal rhyming aside, it's a vicious cycle. So, that week and a half was good. (Well, at least it felt pretty good?)
There was no partying (which is really no fun anyway), but it's good to know you have time to waste reading books, baking mooncakes, cooking lunch and screwing up the huisuo and kitchen by turning it into a library and an (oily?) winter wonderland. Ahaha I sound delusional again. o_o Pictures shall appear some other time, perhaps.
...I think I have a phobia of microphones. =_= Pointing one at me is like flipping a switch off. But then again, I have a general fear and dislike for anything that requires me to communicate with an audience (1, 2 or 20, it doesn't matter.) Don't worry, it was still fun.
Oh. Yes, my friend, perspective of height is relative. I never said it wasn't. In fact, scientifically it's called a parallax error, no? But that guy might still be taller, except the extent of the disparity is different between you and I. By the way, I don't see how this blog is worthy of a stalker. ...and I might have guessed eventually using that comment.
I wonder how much more I should censor what I type, but I'm too lazy to bother. Hmm. ._.
Anyway, the post-prelim timetable is...complicated. (Or 眼花缭乱 or whoa, 五彩缤纷 if you prefer!) I'm not even sure how I'm gonna continue planning; currently stuck after 2 weeks. Ahh I think I should be consulting my subject tutors. ._. Hold on, how does one book consultation slots?
Tsk tsk, I shall go in search of the answer to that tomorrow then. For now, sleep sounds like a preferable endeavor.
(Well, well, typing isn't good for a coherent train of thought! D: Encourages 'excessive insertions and deletions' HMM.)
25.8.12
Prelimsss.
Are looming in the background. Oh dear.
Ahaha I've failed to read through Women in Love (which is about men and women in hate, rather.) once more before Tuesday! ...actually I should read through Tess too. Aw, heck.
GP appears to be in shambles too since my teacher specifically requested to see me before the paper. Well, it was just an experiment in style! I'm not planning on writing an example driven essay for the exam! Not my style. D:
Aiyaaa I've been really restless recently! Studying for hours on end is not the most entertaining way to spend your time. Therefore, I tried to play basketball with Cheng Yong, Wai Yan and Ben Goh. .___. (And amused Venus, Sarah and Songhao in the process.) It wasn't to much avail though, I'm still the paradigm of inaccuracy. D: But it's still fun to run around though! Never got the chance during primary and secondary school heh. The people we played against were interesting too, what with this guy who looks 1.8m tall saying he can't jump and catch rebounds, and having doubts about being able to defend against a 1.57m girl who has no experience in playing. -_-
Oh hey, I learnt that basketballs fit perfectly into netball hoops! But only perfectly. They don't go in if you don't have pin-point accuracy. o_o
I haven't typed a post in so long I seem to be rambling less than I usually do.
Hmm. My mum borrowed a cool book about tea! Here's a quote:
'On the eighth day, God created sweet tea.
Some things in life must be enjoyed
looking at the clouds and waiting for the rain.' - Carvin Melon
'There is a great deal of poetry and fine sentiment
in a chest of tea.' - Ralph Waldo Emerson (I think this one is quite famous.)
... meh. fun. is an interesting band.
Some Nights! I only just discovered what I think are allusions to war. o_o
Ho-hum, shall get back to work. ):
Ahaha I've failed to read through Women in Love (which is about men and women in hate, rather.) once more before Tuesday! ...actually I should read through Tess too. Aw, heck.
GP appears to be in shambles too since my teacher specifically requested to see me before the paper. Well, it was just an experiment in style! I'm not planning on writing an example driven essay for the exam! Not my style. D:
Aiyaaa I've been really restless recently! Studying for hours on end is not the most entertaining way to spend your time. Therefore, I tried to play basketball with Cheng Yong, Wai Yan and Ben Goh. .___. (And amused Venus, Sarah and Songhao in the process.) It wasn't to much avail though, I'm still the paradigm of inaccuracy. D: But it's still fun to run around though! Never got the chance during primary and secondary school heh. The people we played against were interesting too, what with this guy who looks 1.8m tall saying he can't jump and catch rebounds, and having doubts about being able to defend against a 1.57m girl who has no experience in playing. -_-
Oh hey, I learnt that basketballs fit perfectly into netball hoops! But only perfectly. They don't go in if you don't have pin-point accuracy. o_o
I haven't typed a post in so long I seem to be rambling less than I usually do.
Hmm. My mum borrowed a cool book about tea! Here's a quote:
'On the eighth day, God created sweet tea.
Some things in life must be enjoyed
looking at the clouds and waiting for the rain.' - Carvin Melon
'There is a great deal of poetry and fine sentiment
in a chest of tea.' - Ralph Waldo Emerson (I think this one is quite famous.)
... meh. fun. is an interesting band.
Some Nights! I only just discovered what I think are allusions to war. o_o
Ho-hum, shall get back to work. ):
28.4.12
My life revolves around...?
Oh really? That's an interesting statement! But I beg to differ.
I thought about it on the long way home but I still think no. ._. My life essentially revolves around what I see as the many problems with the world, my life and myself. I choose not to discuss these things because I feel they are my problems, and mine alone. I don't even think they're appropriate to put on the web. Otherwise, I get fixated on things that don't stem from the life around me and would neither make sense nor interest most people (like clouds and the atmosphere, or a sudden curiosity in what defines a cat, or finding out why mimosa plants can grow into trees).
Coupled with the fact that I don't like interacting with most people because they usually bore me, are too noisy or make me feel left out unintentionally, all in all you could say I don't get out much. -_- I don't really have interesting things I observed to talk about because classes just go by in this mundane way, and so do lunch breaks. I think it's hard for topics that interest me to come up especially in a large group of people. D: Somehow the extent to which I shut down and shut up is proportionate to the number of people present in the conversation. As a result, go around rather alone. Sadly, there's a lack of occurrences, things or people to discuss.
If not, I doubt things. I spend a lot of time doubting our political system, doubting our education, doubting my abilities, doubting my existence, doubting the meaning of life. You could say it's all quite pointless and bleak, but firstly, I agree with that and secondly, I don't really want to discuss it with people. The way I see it, life is generally pointless and annoying. I'd rather discuss more light-hearted things that make both you and I happy, right? I could talk to you about the book I'm reading, but currently it's basically about the weakness, ineptitude or ill fate of people under the conscious or unconscious influence of power. Much of what goes on in my head is basically cynicism or doubt, or things that trouble me that I know I can't solve, which I'd hate to dump on anyone. If I go about sharing these things I think I'll get trapped in a spiral of negativity.
I don't like how my grades jump from better than good to failure. I can't figure out how to phrase my answers properly but I can't quite discuss my subjects with you either. -SIGH- Anyway, the fact that my grades aren't proportionate to the amount of effort I put in is just frustrating.
My dad was telling me that nothing in life is that important.
I still can't understand that concept. I actually feel (oh wow, I always thought I was more of an emotionless fish) that life should be important. Or is it the idea that 'life is to important to take seriously'? Ah, Oscar Wilde. I wonder how such an important thing as life can be worthless.
Yep okay! I shall sleep!
I thought about it on the long way home but I still think no. ._. My life essentially revolves around what I see as the many problems with the world, my life and myself. I choose not to discuss these things because I feel they are my problems, and mine alone. I don't even think they're appropriate to put on the web. Otherwise, I get fixated on things that don't stem from the life around me and would neither make sense nor interest most people (like clouds and the atmosphere, or a sudden curiosity in what defines a cat, or finding out why mimosa plants can grow into trees).
Coupled with the fact that I don't like interacting with most people because they usually bore me, are too noisy or make me feel left out unintentionally, all in all you could say I don't get out much. -_- I don't really have interesting things I observed to talk about because classes just go by in this mundane way, and so do lunch breaks. I think it's hard for topics that interest me to come up especially in a large group of people. D: Somehow the extent to which I shut down and shut up is proportionate to the number of people present in the conversation. As a result, go around rather alone. Sadly, there's a lack of occurrences, things or people to discuss.
If not, I doubt things. I spend a lot of time doubting our political system, doubting our education, doubting my abilities, doubting my existence, doubting the meaning of life. You could say it's all quite pointless and bleak, but firstly, I agree with that and secondly, I don't really want to discuss it with people. The way I see it, life is generally pointless and annoying. I'd rather discuss more light-hearted things that make both you and I happy, right? I could talk to you about the book I'm reading, but currently it's basically about the weakness, ineptitude or ill fate of people under the conscious or unconscious influence of power. Much of what goes on in my head is basically cynicism or doubt, or things that trouble me that I know I can't solve, which I'd hate to dump on anyone. If I go about sharing these things I think I'll get trapped in a spiral of negativity.
I don't like how my grades jump from better than good to failure. I can't figure out how to phrase my answers properly but I can't quite discuss my subjects with you either. -SIGH- Anyway, the fact that my grades aren't proportionate to the amount of effort I put in is just frustrating.
My dad was telling me that nothing in life is that important.
I still can't understand that concept. I actually feel (oh wow, I always thought I was more of an emotionless fish) that life should be important. Or is it the idea that 'life is to important to take seriously'? Ah, Oscar Wilde. I wonder how such an important thing as life can be worthless.
Yep okay! I shall sleep!
13.4.12
舒缓压力嘛。
对不起，我好像看不开了。说真的，这次‘比赛’让我更深地了解人生的不公平。这能算是分出高低吗？简直就是一开始就决定好要让谁会是赢家。在拼有什么用？人家一生都没学会公正。可能是没人教过吧。至于自己，我实在没料到会发生这种事。早知道就不该下去练，不会答应代替你。要怪也只能怪自己傻。付出总会化为一场空。但是我算是有一点情不自禁了？不清楚从什么时候开始喜欢上打套路，更不知道自己为何感染到那种精神: 那种辉煌的‘自强不息，永不言败’的精神。为自己鼓掌吧，因为你们这群人实在有魅力！能激励他人不怕痛，不怕累，坚持下去不是一件容易的事。对不起，我无法发挥在这一年来你们教我的一切。
对不起，我不擅长表达自己的心思。所以相信根本不会有人了解，虽然可能还会有人在乎。或许就用一百个对不起表达！
奇怪。当初加入武术队十分不甘愿，现在要离开却觉得万万不舍。花了六年的时间，虽然学到了许多，根本没什么实在的收获。怎么办？
12.4.12
Is it fate?
Well. Tomorrow's the last day of competitions! Competitions are funny things. They're unpredictable no matter how good or bad you are. Or how hard you've worked. Because unreliably inevitably people injure themselves or find out they have asthma! What the heck. My ankle didn't even bother me this time but whoa, wheezing?! Walao. What a joke.
The point is it's just sad that I didn't contribute any points when I probably could have, especially for dao. DDDD: I don't knowwww. If I had started learning gun earlier, or if my lungs didn't die on me, I might have placed. -SIGH-
Feels like a waste of effort. Even though it was the best I could do under the circumstances! (In conclusion the circumstances kinda suck.)
There's only A levels to work towards now! Unfortunately, mugging gets really boring after a while. Pfffft.
I guess I should sleep soon. ):
1.4.12
就靠意志力了！
I can walk! >D YAY~ I realise I don't realise how important every part of a person's body is until you injure stuff. ._. I love you dear ankle, please recover soon (and fully)! -sigh- Must continue to believe you will recover! I hope the 一圈半 will go fine! D: Plus I'm seriously considering pulling out for 新长拳. It has the highest chance of me re-injuring myself and the lowest chance of winning anything so... ah. Mm.
Your Height Says You're Introspective
You are a very vulnerable and spiritual person. Your emotions run deep.
You have a philosophical and poetic soul. You think things through and are a bit of a skeptic.
You tend to be very opinionated. You are a perfectionist with high standards.
You prefer to work alone. You work hard, and you don't like interruptions.
You are about as tall as the average Japanese woman.
Your True Birth Month Is January
Loyal
Social
Logical
Easily jealous
Loves children
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Likes to criticize
Needs close friends
Ambitious and serious
Smart, neat and organized
Hardworking and productive
Loves to teach and be taught
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Searches for the greatest romance
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Well I'm too bored so I shall post a blogthing(or 2). :D 'Kay see ya~
Your Height Says You're Introspective
You are a very vulnerable and spiritual person. Your emotions run deep.
You have a philosophical and poetic soul. You think things through and are a bit of a skeptic.
You tend to be very opinionated. You are a perfectionist with high standards.
You prefer to work alone. You work hard, and you don't like interruptions.
You are about as tall as the average Japanese woman.
Your True Birth Month Is January
Loyal
Social
Logical
Easily jealous
Loves children
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Likes to criticize
Needs close friends
Ambitious and serious
Smart, neat and organized
Hardworking and productive
Loves to teach and be taught
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Searches for the greatest romance
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
I don't know about the 'easily jealous', 'loves children', 'highly attentive' and 'likes to criticise' part ahaha. xD
My mother is a genius.
Seriously. She just threw away my remaining oral medication. Well. I have nothing to say. At least I didn't leave my topical medicine in the plastic bag?
I don't understand. If you call up all our distant relatives and your colleagues to moan about my injury, how is it you can kick me in the ankle and not even apologise? Same goes for discarding my medicine. Why the hell do I exist anyway? I really don't think I'm here because you wanted to care. Last time I checked, I take better care of myself than you do. (But then again I don't take very good care of myself.) It's fine if I've a long time to recover, but I don't. ...you're not helping. Goodness.
Aw damn, being angry isn't helping either! TSK.
Yes, that being said I hope the videos upload to mediafire (in 2 hours time). For some reason even the videos smaller than the attachment limit fail to be sent through email! D: -SIGH- I need a hug. And some time away from my mum (which I can't manage). Oh. Need sleep too. Damn it all.
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