Is it fate?

Well. Tomorrow's the last day of competitions! Competitions are funny things. They're unpredictable no matter how good or bad you are. Or how hard you've worked. Because unreliably inevitably people injure themselves or find out they have asthma! What the heck. My ankle didn't even bother me this time but whoa, wheezing?! Walao. What a joke.

The point is it's just sad that I didn't contribute any points when I probably could have, especially for dao. DDDD: I don't knowwww. If I had started learning gun earlier, or if my lungs didn't die on me, I might have placed. -SIGH-

Feels like a waste of effort. Even though it was the best I could do under the circumstances! (In conclusion the circumstances kinda suck.)

There's only A levels to work towards now! Unfortunately, mugging gets really boring after a while. Pfffft.

I guess I should sleep soon. ):

就靠意志力了！

I can walk! >D YAY~ I realise I don't realise how important every part of a person's body is until you injure stuff. ._. I love you dear ankle, please recover soon (and fully)! -sigh- Must continue to believe you will recover! I hope the 一圈半 will go fine! D: Plus I'm seriously considering pulling out for 新长拳. It has the highest chance of me re-injuring myself and the lowest chance of winning anything so... ah. Mm.

Well I'm too bored so I shall post a blogthing(or 2). :D 'Kay see ya~

Your Height Says You're Introspective



You are a very vulnerable and spiritual person. Your emotions run deep.

You have a philosophical and poetic soul. You think things through and are a bit of a skeptic.



You tend to be very opinionated. You are a perfectionist with high standards.

You prefer to work alone. You work hard, and you don't like interruptions.



You are about as tall as the average Japanese woman.

What Does Your Height Say About You?

Your True Birth Month Is January




Loyal

Social

Logical

Easily jealous

Loves children

Rather reserved

Highly attentive

Likes to criticize

Needs close friends

Ambitious and serious

Smart, neat and organized

Hardworking and productive

Loves to teach and be taught

Quiet unless excited or tensed

Sensitive and has deep thoughts

Knows how to make others happy

Searches for the greatest romance

Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds

Romantic but has difficulties expressing love

Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses

What's Your True Birth Month?

I don't know about the 'easily jealous', 'loves children', 'highly attentive' and 'likes to criticise' part ahaha. xD

My mother is a genius.

Seriously. She just threw away my remaining oral medication. Well. I have nothing to say. At least I didn't leave my topical medicine in the plastic bag?

I don't understand. If you call up all our distant relatives and your colleagues to moan about my injury, how is it you can kick me in the ankle and not even apologise? Same goes for discarding my medicine. Why the hell do I exist anyway? I really don't think I'm here because you wanted to care. Last time I checked, I take better care of myself than you do. (But then again I don't take very good care of myself.) It's fine if I've a long time to recover, but I don't. ...you're not helping. Goodness.

Aw damn, being angry isn't helping either! TSK.

Yes, that being said I hope the videos upload to mediafire (in 2 hours time). For some reason even the videos smaller than the attachment limit fail to be sent through email! D: -SIGH- I need a hug. And some time away from my mum (which I can't manage). Oh. Need sleep too. Damn it all.

Being a block-ed block.

ARGH block test continues tomorrow! And this time 'round the time table seems even stupider than before because I've 2 empty days to mug Top Girls. ._. (whichIdon'tknowhowtomug.) Well, I suppose it beats ending early and feeling empty. Is that strange? Seems I've gotten so used to studying for things that when I'm not, life feels that much more pointless. Ah, I need to get a life. Perhaps.

Well now, thought I'd give up mugging because the water table in my brain has risen so much that more and more of the surface runoff is saturated overland flow. Physical geog(Y). Translated into English, that means my brain's so saturated stuff is starting to pour out. That's not to say there isn't/wasn't a substantial amount of infiltration excess flow too. (Mugging is too intense, but it has been since last year. ._.)

After looking at the prospectus for universities, I'm damn worried about A levels. The minimum is what, AAB? What if I can't find the right way to answer by November? What if I've forgotten my texts from last year? What if I blank out? What if the questions are deliberately weird? Plus what's wrong with me? I've never panicked over any exam before! Or over most things, in fact. -sigh- This be the annoying thing about caring, I s'pose. You could say I'd rather not invest too much in the things I do, 'cause my emotions get dragged along. D< And damn, do I have no control over them. Emotions are such irritating things! All they've done so far is impede any actual efficiency or progress. Personally, I feel like I lost control over myself if I get emotional, then I get more emotional because I've lost control. Vicious cycle. Sucks. There's also the bit where emotions can't be controlled to begin with, but feeling sad is feeling sad, feeling happy is feeling happy. Hmm.

Meh, is it just me or are my posts crazier around test periods? Ack, I feel a bit insane! o_O

Anyway, speaking of insanity, Ching Yee and I were distracting ourselves with caricatures of people! (One of which became a depressed fluffball, another which was a biantai looking balloon?!) Yes, I guess studying econs isn't good for your sanity! Not that any other subject has the reverse effect? :D Oh neither does talking about, I dunno, hair? o.o

Ah, I'm at a loss for words again. ^^; Eheheh.

Wheeeee social experiments are interesting~ What makes certain things inappropriate and other things fine? (...I still dunno how 'okay' it is to, let's-not-discuss-this-here. >< Eh I feel bothered again although I'm not supposed to. Or aren't I? Eheh. :D) By the way, what if I_? (Ah, I mean, 'Never give up on anything you can't go a day without thinking about'?!) My wonderful friend Denial is failing me~ D: D: D: AW C'MON. ._.

Uhhh here are more inspirational quotes!

'When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.'

'Everything is okay in the end, if it's not okay, then it's not the end.'

'I do it because I can, I can because I want to, I want to because you said I couldn't.'

'Forget all the reasons why something might not work, all you need is one reason why it will.'

Oh-kay enough inspiration, it's 10pm! Shall sleep early!

I'm like a bird~ (But literate!)

I'll only fly away~ Haha, nah, I don't have wings! Hello, Sarah! Would you care to explain why I remind you of a bird? xD I don't completely understand 'cause as far as I can tell I don't have wings.

... I've been reading about anti-bacterial products. Haha I was curious about the ingredients in my powder so I googled it. Pretty scary. Apparently most of them add chemicals (which I recognise from reading the labels in the shower!) which are carcinogenic. Being the hypochondriac I am, I am disturbed. o__o (Speaking of which, I should lift my wrists off the laptop and place it on a higher, flat surface. Not that I have any -cough- male gametes to worry about but the heat is almost painful.)

Time to digress!

I spent half the day with Ching Yee today. xD At Queenstown library. (No, we didn't invite Jiahe to come.) Trying to annotate my lit book is... tedium to say the least. But it's rather interesting too of course. :D If not, I wouldn't be a lit student. Both of us got distracted by quote books hahaha. Here's an example: 'The only thing I cannot resist is temptation'. O: Such a Wilde thing to say.

Tsk tsk, everyone around me has been telling my to have more confidence. o_o Tall order. I might be able to pretend, but it'll take time. =\ Oh well.

I've just had an epiphany! Y'know, anything with menthol in it should help with itching, right? So perhaps applying tiger balm will relieve it. o.o It's not quite so dangerous compared to other strange concoctions, no? (Yes, the point being that Cheng Yong's eczema is scary to the extent where I mistook the brown marks on his shirt for rust to which he responded, 'Blood. Ignore.' and folded it in. ><) Alright, sorry, let me find more interesting things to talk about. ._. Was distracted by the pot of it on my table. Oh, I was reading somewhere that an active ingredient should help with arthritis in the long run. o.o

Well, uh, sporcle.com is an interesting website! They're 'mentally stimulating diversions'. :D Quite true actually. It's a good place to test your general knowledge too! But don't worry, it's fun. ^^

AH, GP. I'm too verbose. Can be more succinct. Maybe like this. Haha, my normal writing style is peppered with redundant adjectives and add-ons, if you care to notice. D: Sorta like the previous sentence.

Oh! There's a new season of The Mentalist actually! But it isn't aired on channel 5 anymore, sadly. Hmm maybe I'll be able to find it online. Same goes for the BBC series Sherlock. I finished watching the first season on the plane! It just occurred to me that it's been 2012 for a while so it has been out for a while now. ^^

Right, it's almost 1am, so I guess I shouldn't try searching for episodes to watch now. Not like my brain is functioning at the moment either. Until next time then!

Anonymity.

Heh. I like one word/one phrase titles to blog posts! Don't ask me how I come up with them, haha~

I like anonymity too~ It makes doing things another notch more altruistic? 'Cause you can't hope to gain much from whatever you do for others. Heheh.

Oh, but I don't mind if anonymous commentators tell me who they are though! 'Cause I'm friendly, especially over the internet~ :D Thanks for the compliment/suggestion haha!

Ahahahaha double standards, considering I don't leave my full name lying around on the internet.

HMM. :3 (Oh, I know it's impossible to smile like that unless you're a cat.)

There's a V-day special JCC session tomorrow whee~ I can't remember what we're doing exactly, but we're meeting the J1s. I think we might either be making chocolate (which is essentially melting it down and re-moulding them) or having a mystery steamboat where everyone brings something edible to add to the pot. Oh no. I don't really have edible things on hand. ._. The funny thing is, our president said we could leave early if we flashed a photo of our 'dates' to prove it's true. HAHAHA like anyone's going to do it! But it's a pretty good deal objectively speaking. Maybe if you flashed some friend's photo (with their permission) fast enough... >D

Well anyway, I seem to have finished searching for music for jiti before they decided they wanted us to find music for jiti. It was my entertainment/motivation/good distraction during HBL. (Done on the last day eheheh. D:)

Well, time to sleep. Or at least chop up chocolate. Or sew my pants. ... ... ...oh whatever.

Of pianos and poetry.

Oh wow, the title sounds so 温文尔雅 this time. If that's the correct adjective! I don't know an appropriate description in English though. D: Ahhhh flying catfishes save my GP! ... oh! I remember now, the word is genteel. But the meaning carries across much better in Chinese, doesn't it? :D

I figured I'd post since I'm back home before sunset for once, since Ching Yee and the interesting feeling in almost every part of my body convinced me not to bother with 8(?) flights of steps.

Well, piano pieces are really nice~ Except the music scores are damn hard to read, and consequently pianos are damn hard to play. D: Here's a little known fact: the piano was probably the first instrument I liked so much to ask for music lessons. Which explains the familiarity with piano pieces, maybe! -_- I can't think of any other reason why I would know the tune to so many pieces. ._. Actually, it still doesn't tally when I think about it. Hmm, mysterious.

Ah, I'm not kidding when I say someone has a calming influence. ._. Ching Yee and I were discussing this the other day, and we guessed it had something to do with being bochap? Hahaha, but wouldn't that mean the most bochap person I know should have that influence too? -cough-HW-COUGH- Or exert even more influence, for that matter. ._. Oh lookee, another mystery. ... honestly, I feel slightly bad for feeling better by stoning with people at black and white keys. ... ... ...I wonder if it bothers/disturbs/scares the other party. ._. Huh.

Oh right, the poetry bit. Firstly, I owe my poor tutor 6 pieces of lit homework. D: I promise I'll do it after this post! >< One of the assignments is to compose a response in the form of a poem (again). Well, at least writing poetry is more interesting than writing essays. And, uh, if you happen to be Ching or Sarah, I did mention I went a bit mad from studying during promo-period and so went and wrote a poem in a previous blog post, if you care to check. ._. Here it is anyway?

How would you define a Screwdriver?

I must confess and express,

To my distress, I'm impressed by how you're impeccable but always a mess.

You're completely oblivious, conscientious, meticulous, judicious, sacrilegious!

Responsible and unreliable, you endure that you're sure and insecure.

Equal parts quiet and reticent, insane and inane, oh dear, you are quite the pain.

But you amaze for you're a maze, safe and ensnaring, impassive, engaging, minute but binding.

It shouldn't be instinctive to find you distinctive, people believe; but you've a penchant to be inconclusive, sometimes explosive! They must be too dismissive.

Perhaps you're just cryptic, but maybe simply because you're simplistic.

Please grant me some apathy to your patience and empathy, it's all too subtly amusing, calming, confusing for the likes of - Screw this!

I apologise, beg you to spare me, and become conscious of your unconscious hold over my subconscious.

Or possibly not.

WELL THERE YOU GO. It's a terrible poem, really. I was happily experimenting with the sound of the words with the help of a thesaurus on a public bus. Seriously, on a bus, mind you! Frankly, promos mess with your head. UHH I RECKON I'LL CHANGE MY MIND AND TAKE IT DOWN SOON. D: It's not the best thing to plonk on the world wide web, really. (天啊我不清楚我到底在干嘛呀。)

Oh I seem to have chanced upon a spin-off of the 小妹妹变态 game Fan Yi plays in the app market.

Damn it I don't have anything else to ramble about. Uh, there's PE tomorrow and I might die! From remnant PT pain whee~

I shall leave this page before I die from hesitation, humiliation, procrastination or all three. Besides, now I need to find a box to hide in. ._.