Being a block-ed block.

ARGH block test continues tomorrow! And this time 'round the time table seems even stupider than before because I've 2 empty days to mug Top Girls. ._. (whichIdon'tknowhowtomug.) Well, I suppose it beats ending early and feeling empty. Is that strange? Seems I've gotten so used to studying for things that when I'm not, life feels that much more pointless. Ah, I need to get a life. Perhaps.

Well now, thought I'd give up mugging because the water table in my brain has risen so much that more and more of the surface runoff is saturated overland flow. Physical geog(Y). Translated into English, that means my brain's so saturated stuff is starting to pour out. That's not to say there isn't/wasn't a substantial amount of infiltration excess flow too. (Mugging is too intense, but it has been since last year. ._.)

After looking at the prospectus for universities, I'm damn worried about A levels. The minimum is what, AAB? What if I can't find the right way to answer by November? What if I've forgotten my texts from last year? What if I blank out? What if the questions are deliberately weird? Plus what's wrong with me? I've never panicked over any exam before! Or over most things, in fact. -sigh- This be the annoying thing about caring, I s'pose. You could say I'd rather not invest too much in the things I do, 'cause my emotions get dragged along. D< And damn, do I have no control over them. Emotions are such irritating things! All they've done so far is impede any actual efficiency or progress. Personally, I feel like I lost control over myself if I get emotional, then I get more emotional because I've lost control. Vicious cycle. Sucks. There's also the bit where emotions can't be controlled to begin with, but feeling sad is feeling sad, feeling happy is feeling happy. Hmm.

Meh, is it just me or are my posts crazier around test periods? Ack, I feel a bit insane! o_O

Anyway, speaking of insanity, Ching Yee and I were distracting ourselves with caricatures of people! (One of which became a depressed fluffball, another which was a biantai looking balloon?!) Yes, I guess studying econs isn't good for your sanity! Not that any other subject has the reverse effect? :D Oh neither does talking about, I dunno, hair? o.o

Ah, I'm at a loss for words again. ^^; Eheheh.

Wheeeee social experiments are interesting~ What makes certain things inappropriate and other things fine? (...I still dunno how 'okay' it is to, let's-not-discuss-this-here. >< Eh I feel bothered again although I'm not supposed to. Or aren't I? Eheh. :D) By the way, what if I_? (Ah, I mean, 'Never give up on anything you can't go a day without thinking about'?!) My wonderful friend Denial is failing me~ D: D: D: AW C'MON. ._.

Uhhh here are more inspirational quotes!

'When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.'

'Everything is okay in the end, if it's not okay, then it's not the end.'

'I do it because I can, I can because I want to, I want to because you said I couldn't.'

'Forget all the reasons why something might not work, all you need is one reason why it will.'

Oh-kay enough inspiration, it's 10pm! Shall sleep early!

I'm like a bird~ (But literate!)

I'll only fly away~ Haha, nah, I don't have wings! Hello, Sarah! Would you care to explain why I remind you of a bird? xD I don't completely understand 'cause as far as I can tell I don't have wings.

... I've been reading about anti-bacterial products. Haha I was curious about the ingredients in my powder so I googled it. Pretty scary. Apparently most of them add chemicals (which I recognise from reading the labels in the shower!) which are carcinogenic. Being the hypochondriac I am, I am disturbed. o__o (Speaking of which, I should lift my wrists off the laptop and place it on a higher, flat surface. Not that I have any -cough- male gametes to worry about but the heat is almost painful.)

Time to digress!

I spent half the day with Ching Yee today. xD At Queenstown library. (No, we didn't invite Jiahe to come.) Trying to annotate my lit book is... tedium to say the least. But it's rather interesting too of course. :D If not, I wouldn't be a lit student. Both of us got distracted by quote books hahaha. Here's an example: 'The only thing I cannot resist is temptation'. O: Such a Wilde thing to say.

Tsk tsk, everyone around me has been telling my to have more confidence. o_o Tall order. I might be able to pretend, but it'll take time. =\ Oh well.

I've just had an epiphany! Y'know, anything with menthol in it should help with itching, right? So perhaps applying tiger balm will relieve it. o.o It's not quite so dangerous compared to other strange concoctions, no? (Yes, the point being that Cheng Yong's eczema is scary to the extent where I mistook the brown marks on his shirt for rust to which he responded, 'Blood. Ignore.' and folded it in. ><) Alright, sorry, let me find more interesting things to talk about. ._. Was distracted by the pot of it on my table. Oh, I was reading somewhere that an active ingredient should help with arthritis in the long run. o.o

Well, uh, sporcle.com is an interesting website! They're 'mentally stimulating diversions'. :D Quite true actually. It's a good place to test your general knowledge too! But don't worry, it's fun. ^^

AH, GP. I'm too verbose. Can be more succinct. Maybe like this. Haha, my normal writing style is peppered with redundant adjectives and add-ons, if you care to notice. D: Sorta like the previous sentence.

Oh! There's a new season of The Mentalist actually! But it isn't aired on channel 5 anymore, sadly. Hmm maybe I'll be able to find it online. Same goes for the BBC series Sherlock. I finished watching the first season on the plane! It just occurred to me that it's been 2012 for a while so it has been out for a while now. ^^

Right, it's almost 1am, so I guess I shouldn't try searching for episodes to watch now. Not like my brain is functioning at the moment either. Until next time then!

Anonymity.

Heh. I like one word/one phrase titles to blog posts! Don't ask me how I come up with them, haha~

I like anonymity too~ It makes doing things another notch more altruistic? 'Cause you can't hope to gain much from whatever you do for others. Heheh.

Oh, but I don't mind if anonymous commentators tell me who they are though! 'Cause I'm friendly, especially over the internet~ :D Thanks for the compliment/suggestion haha!

Ahahahaha double standards, considering I don't leave my full name lying around on the internet.

HMM. :3 (Oh, I know it's impossible to smile like that unless you're a cat.)

There's a V-day special JCC session tomorrow whee~ I can't remember what we're doing exactly, but we're meeting the J1s. I think we might either be making chocolate (which is essentially melting it down and re-moulding them) or having a mystery steamboat where everyone brings something edible to add to the pot. Oh no. I don't really have edible things on hand. ._. The funny thing is, our president said we could leave early if we flashed a photo of our 'dates' to prove it's true. HAHAHA like anyone's going to do it! But it's a pretty good deal objectively speaking. Maybe if you flashed some friend's photo (with their permission) fast enough... >D

Well anyway, I seem to have finished searching for music for jiti before they decided they wanted us to find music for jiti. It was my entertainment/motivation/good distraction during HBL. (Done on the last day eheheh. D:)

Well, time to sleep. Or at least chop up chocolate. Or sew my pants. ... ... ...oh whatever.

Of pianos and poetry.

Oh wow, the title sounds so 温文尔雅 this time. If that's the correct adjective! I don't know an appropriate description in English though. D: Ahhhh flying catfishes save my GP! ... oh! I remember now, the word is genteel. But the meaning carries across much better in Chinese, doesn't it? :D

I figured I'd post since I'm back home before sunset for once, since Ching Yee and the interesting feeling in almost every part of my body convinced me not to bother with 8(?) flights of steps.

Well, piano pieces are really nice~ Except the music scores are damn hard to read, and consequently pianos are damn hard to play. D: Here's a little known fact: the piano was probably the first instrument I liked so much to ask for music lessons. Which explains the familiarity with piano pieces, maybe! -_- I can't think of any other reason why I would know the tune to so many pieces. ._. Actually, it still doesn't tally when I think about it. Hmm, mysterious.

Ah, I'm not kidding when I say someone has a calming influence. ._. Ching Yee and I were discussing this the other day, and we guessed it had something to do with being bochap? Hahaha, but wouldn't that mean the most bochap person I know should have that influence too? -cough-HW-COUGH- Or exert even more influence, for that matter. ._. Oh lookee, another mystery. ... honestly, I feel slightly bad for feeling better by stoning with people at black and white keys. ... ... ...I wonder if it bothers/disturbs/scares the other party. ._. Huh.

Oh right, the poetry bit. Firstly, I owe my poor tutor 6 pieces of lit homework. D: I promise I'll do it after this post! >< One of the assignments is to compose a response in the form of a poem (again). Well, at least writing poetry is more interesting than writing essays. And, uh, if you happen to be Ching or Sarah, I did mention I went a bit mad from studying during promo-period and so went and wrote a poem in a previous blog post, if you care to check. ._. Here it is anyway?

How would you define a Screwdriver?

I must confess and express,

To my distress, I'm impressed by how you're impeccable but always a mess.

You're completely oblivious, conscientious, meticulous, judicious, sacrilegious!

Responsible and unreliable, you endure that you're sure and insecure.

Equal parts quiet and reticent, insane and inane, oh dear, you are quite the pain.

But you amaze for you're a maze, safe and ensnaring, impassive, engaging, minute but binding.

It shouldn't be instinctive to find you distinctive, people believe; but you've a penchant to be inconclusive, sometimes explosive! They must be too dismissive.

Perhaps you're just cryptic, but maybe simply because you're simplistic.

Please grant me some apathy to your patience and empathy, it's all too subtly amusing, calming, confusing for the likes of - Screw this!

I apologise, beg you to spare me, and become conscious of your unconscious hold over my subconscious.

Or possibly not.

WELL THERE YOU GO. It's a terrible poem, really. I was happily experimenting with the sound of the words with the help of a thesaurus on a public bus. Seriously, on a bus, mind you! Frankly, promos mess with your head. UHH I RECKON I'LL CHANGE MY MIND AND TAKE IT DOWN SOON. D: It's not the best thing to plonk on the world wide web, really. (天啊我不清楚我到底在干嘛呀。)

Oh I seem to have chanced upon a spin-off of the 小妹妹变态 game Fan Yi plays in the app market.

Damn it I don't have anything else to ramble about. Uh, there's PE tomorrow and I might die! From remnant PT pain whee~

I shall leave this page before I die from hesitation, humiliation, procrastination or all three. Besides, now I need to find a box to hide in. ._.

Cup of milk. :D

Haha, it's what's sitting on my table at the moment. xD By the way, the thing about drinking more milk helping you to grow taller is rubbish. ._. Not like it's worked this past 5 years~ Uh, but still I only drink Meiji since it doesn't really taste like milk. Make any sense? No? Good for you. :D

Here's another thing that doesn't make sense~ Wushu people are still as cheapskate as ever! xD Whenever someone produces food (or the food is just sitting on a table) that costs nothing, everyone flocks there! Heheh Sarah said we're all like birds, since birds like to flock to food. :D

More things that don't make perfect sense include seaweed chocolate! ._. All chocolate at first, then you suddenly detect seaweed. I wonder whose brilliant idea it was to put seaweed into chocolate. o_o Even stranger still! It's not bad.

Oh, and going overseas to take pictures of good looking people doesn't make sense either. -COUGH- Neither does changing one's name the equivalent of your spouse! Not that poking people into standing next to each other does for that matter. - MORE COUGHING-

(Oh well, that's what the glass of milk is for, ain't it?)

Since we haven't left the topic of nonsense, Venus's flu is ridiculous! It's lasted since last week and hasn't gone away. D: Poor Bean, we should give her more nourishment/sunlight perhaps.

In retrospect, letting my sister infiltrate our school is nonsensical too. ._. I've been infected by the nonsense she's full of! o_o

Doing holiday homework before the holidays end is something that makes sense though! So that's what I'll do. ^^

...the meaning of life?

My dad says I've too much time on my hands. ._. Which results in me thinking too much. O: Well, I've kinda figured there is no meaning in life, really. Maybe it's just in human nature to like to find meaning in things. I like meaning, don't you? :D But many purposes and meanings were probably attached to things because someone out there was searching for a meaning where there wasn't one. o.o

Over-thinking things is probably bad for your health. Ahaha~ I mean, I only managed to win in reversi when I played with Pei An when I didn't think. Oh dear. There go all my battle plans down the drain. Anyway! You get the point. xD

Eh what other secret?! D: Sarah! How could you know of a secret I don't know myself? o_o And why're you so busy~? ._. It's so difficult to arrange an outing. -_-

Venus why are you not online. -_- I was going to sleep until you asked me to go online~ D:

Back to sleep.

It's not good to owe people things.

Or so I think! Therefore, I shall post even though it's 12.30 and I'm sleepy from training. ._.

Well, if you must know, I've been spending my days altering a pair of pants that my grandma cut to 3/4 length a long time ago. I suspect it was because they were either torn or growing mould. ._. Anyway! It's actually easy to alter pants into shorts, but that's only when you've a fully functioning sewing machine around~ My mum's 20-year-old sewing machine isn't exactly fully functioning. Imagine friction burn from pulling at thread? Ah, now you see. Y'know, this is how sewing gets frustrating.

Speaking of domestic things, I've been trying to cook udon too. My sister has had this obsession with kitsune cup noodles the past week or so, but they're really unhealthy. ._. So... I've been trying to cook the authentic version. ... ...which she rejected. D; GAH. It's interesting how no oil is used in the process. o_o まじで。Meh, challenge accepted to learn to cook udon that she will eat. -_-

Other than that, I've been trying to read sci-fi books! Only Bluey knows why. -_- (But I reckon I can review them for I&I since it deals with 'the human condition' in parallel universes.) So far, Dune's pretty interesting 40 pages in, but I've quite a long way to go. My dad recommends the Foundation series by Issac Asimov! He was telling me how nice it would be if a movie series was made out of it, 'cause it'd make the book a whole lot easier to understand. I offered to produce it if I ever had the money, but that's... unlikely. :D Never hurts to have nice ideas though!

Sorry if I don't sound coherent, but I am pretty sleepy. ><

Ohhh but Venus has transplanted back to Singapore and taken root! :D It's so fun to uproot her with 'plant references'. Oh, and lame jokes too. >D We must go for lunch soon so I can sprinkle her with more chagrin~

Cheng Yong's back too! Now I feel bad for being useless when I've no maps to refer to and having to get his dad to drop me off at an MRT station. D: Serious, I'll bring a street directory next time we've CC training. >< It's funny how I can read maps well but get lost anyway. o_o Ahaha oh actually I'm not really allowed to hitchhike all the way home, if not I'd have followed Jiahe. ._. My dad's logic is this: If other people's dad can send me home, my own dad should send me home. o.o Jiahe, if you were female it'd help with the issue too. ...huh. 'Cause my mum has an imagination similar to the Amazon rainforest. =_=

I spent Wednesday...? Oh! Out with Pei An and her CCA mates I don't know personally. ._. Ahahahaha. They were looking for badminton supplies! Did you know Daiso sold 2 rackets and a plastic shuttlecock? Which means each racket costs less than a dollar! O: Cheapskate~ :D I've also learnt the difference between guys' and girls' attitude towards shopping. ._. And that I'm just a patient guy in this case. o_O Her CCA mates were sighing and shaking their heads at how we could walk into shops, while I just stoned at the accessories, shoes, stationery she got excited about. Whoa, I realise we moved from Queensway to IMM to Clementi. Not bad, at least I feel less like a sloth.

I kinda need to go dry my hair. ._. Need both hands, so no more typing~