Uncertainty. :D

Hahaha okay I suppose that face isn't appropriate. Anyway, dear Sarah, I might tell you what I'm doubting if I decide I'm doubting beyond a reasonable doubt. Or maybe I'll just tell you tomorrow. o_o

Oh whatever. I owe Yi Xiang money now. Some weird guy was trying to talk me into doing something strange with my debit card and hence blocking the atm machine. Zz. Therefore I couldn't pay for dinner! And Ching Yee didn't have enough so... ahaha.

Meh, back to work!

Someone lend me a leaf blower to clear the perpetual haze surrounding me, please.

I feel retarded now. I might give you a prize for guessing where I am now at 9am on a Saturday morning. -_- Well, I found out an hour ago that PW trial is NEXT Saturday. And here I was waking up at 6am and wondering why no one replied me at 7 something when I asked where were we holding it. ._.

Oh but now I feel like I disrupted Jiahe's napping in the huisuo. D: I'm sorry! I was shocked that the lock was off too. o_o

But I needed to get out of the house to go for a JCC thing anyway. Seiran-sai at the Japanese senior high in S'pore! :D I think it'll be fun. <--What am I saying 2 weeks from promos. ><

Haha since I'm up early I don't particularly feel like doing anything. ._. Oh darn. Think I'll read my book later though I should be mugging something. Like Lit. Which I still don't know how to mug. D:

Over the course of the week Ching and I concluded that it's inefficient to eat dinner with guys 'cause they're pretty indecisive. (Maybe that's an understatement. :d)

And Yixiang's a good person to study with because his focus is infectious. :D And his playlist is nice too, but that's just a perk. xD

Heheh Venus up at the huisuo is a rarity! x) But come to think of it, she's only willing to go up on Fridays~

Whee 没有你怎么办 is a nice song! But really sad. o.o

I think I tend to ramble rubbish when I'm nervous/feel awkward. O: So when I meet people for the first time, I comment on any random observation(s) I make or thoughts I have. .-. Ahahahahaha. Not to mention the laughing at my own jokes. Recently, I suspect it disturbs most people so... not good. But then again it might be good that only the people who can accept me stick around? ._. I don't know what to think.

Hmm I think I shall go now. The huisuo's windy~ Yay. :D

The irresistible temptation of something to say.

Denial: still my favourite state of being. Why else would I be lurking about here?

Procured a new copy of TIOBE, yay! I do hope having it in my possession will preventing another E grade from surfacing. =_=

I need to calm down. ._. Now I owe my econs tutor an apology after flaring up at his insinuation that I wasted my September holidays playing and resting. I'm sorry, I just feel overwhelmed again. I s'pose this isn't particularly good for my heart/lifespan in the long run.

Damn, must complete the next tutorial. Zz.

Similarly, I probably should learn to stop rambling too. Evidently, I'm prone to mental instability when doing math. Someone save me from myself and my insane laughter.

Quiet conversations and comfortable silences are nice, by the way. Incidentally, a positive externality would be their calming effect. Ah, but I bet there's a sneaky negative externality I can't identify skulking (as furtively as soil creep) somewhere nearby. Life is usually balanced that way, huh. ... ...糟糕。

But I see they don't cure rambling so off I go now! :D PW awaits.

Mm, sleepy.

I don't really like the new format of gmail/blogger. It looks like it's trying too hard to be modern and hence has flashy animation, blinking and pop up buttons. Ah well.

Yay 周华健。:D But 陈老师 (aka my ex-Chinese tuition teacher) said something along the lines of “周华健是老人家听的！我很喜欢听，但是我的学生当中只有你一个知道他是谁吧。” o_o

Shall join Ching in her mugging tomorrow~ Somehow I need to be in the mood to study. Before I go to bed and wake up the next morning, I need to psycho myself into believing it's really important to study and so I must get up and go to school to mug. ._. If not I'll just clock another 9 hours again. I hope some of that made sense.

Speaking of sleep, the readers' digest article says the optimum number of hours people should sleep is between 7 to 8. Any more or any less, and you're off to an early grave. Personally, I oscillate between 3-6 hours on school days and 9-11 hours on holidays. ... ... Wish me luck or pick out a funeral song, please and thank you.

Somehow everyone seemed rather angered yesterday. ._. Over... yeah, shan't go into details. But, I seem to just lurch into disappointment. Internally it sinks from neutral to 'oh, alright then.' Maybe it has something to do with expecting too much? I don't know. Perhaps it's because I'd automatically do it, or accept it without any fuss because it is no trouble at all!

Yes, we should go ahead and buy 2 cartons of juice. :D Like the Bean says, it's cost effective.

Please let my panic levels be low on Saturday. ._. Please let it be sunny too, I hate the hall to bits. D< While I'm at this, let me end up in a straight line, neither let go nor hit myself or anyone, and let every swing be audible! Feels like I'm asking for a lot, heh.

The pressure dial for promo is being turned up too. D: I swear my notes stack up to my knee (or more).

Continuing from where I left off, my CT's proposal! Her husband went and rented a yacht for the evening and made her search the boat a la 'Amazing Race' with clues leading to clues leading to a ring. ._. It's like something from a movie, haha. She told our male classmates they had permission to use the idea someday. o.o

Reminding myself of remembered things, this might end up joked about but Ching! If you haven't guessed yet, it's Hitsugaya. ^^

Yeah, probably going to need a walking stick in no time.

Well, this is a day or two late but teachers' day must be mentioned! o_o It felt particularly significant this year for some reason. Maybe it had something to do with having 2 schools to go back to (which are coincidentally all within walking distance of my current school). ._. The other thing would be how very important having good teachers seems to be this year. Y'know, back in primary school it was possible to not listen at all, then back at secondary school you could get away with 50% of your attention on the teacher? Perhaps now you have to listen lest 'U's come looking for you. Haha, okay, not funny.

(Honestly, teachers are more popular than pop stars on teachers' day. Have you ever seen the staff room so crowded? There wasn't even standing room and I couldn't quite see over the crowd.)

It was nice to see 4/9 again! Although it wasn't the best time of my life in Sec 3 and 4, I suppose absence does make the heart grow fonder? Ex-classmates were somehow a lot friendlier than they used to be/usually are! O: I say it's thanks to the happy-happy mood all 'round from visiting teachers. xD Heheh we were really efficient somehow in getting (free!)lunch. (And swiping the eclairs too in case anyone was wondering. o.o) It wouldn't be a bad idea to go back again next year, though we were talking about this and people came to a general consensus that J2 is a little too old. ._. ...really?

But I feel old! D: (As you've probably derived from the title.)

Dinner with HCWS was kinda fun. x) Yay Chingyee has good ideas~ ^^ Thanks for lending a spot in your house for me to stone around by the way! Your mum's really very hospitable. And so is your brother. o.o (Oh no, now you realise I can stalk you home. ._.)

Speaking of dinner, 教练 and 师母's 2 year-old daughter and her phobia of someone was highly amusing~ xD She was friendly to most people but determinedly ignored him the whole night until it was time for everyone to go home. o_o Whoa. Sarah was saying that she might grow up to be like 教练~ Champion at twisting words. :D Meh, that sounds bad, but 教练's really very nice and patient and funny~ It crazy how he hasn't gone into depression from our standard (or lack thereof) yet. ._. (But ahaha '黎珊，_在哪里？' isn't a good question to ask. ._. -insert coughing fit here- Right, moving on.)

Whee Venus being Venus managed to get everyone to wait patiently for her at the MRT station! >D (Ah but no one can beat the guy who was 1 full hour late. o_o -cough-)

Plus, I've been reminded of how much the opposite sex values their 面子？Or according to 教练，‘男生很害羞’。But I maintain that it's only common sense to evenly distribute people with different appetite sizes. ._. But alright, let's not harp on that.

CT dinner was interesting too~ (But Marche is frickin' expensive. D: D: D:) We didn't catch a glimpse of our CT's husband though! But she was telling us about her romantic proposal. ._. Seriously! It was rather 'romantic'.

Need to go now. This is henceforth 'to be cont'd'! :D

Alas, the definition of misunderstanding.

Nonono I think it's awkward. D: No one seems to get it! If I have to distance myself from anyone in my small circle of friends, it's going to be quite painful. ._. Serious. I get along with exceedingly few people. And screw this because I've been contemplating how not to mess up a friendship for the past 2 (at this rate it's going to be 4) days! I... should go talk to him and explain this is mostly to product of good intentions and imaginative minds. D: D: D: That I don't actually, uh, y'know... I've never gone about being nice to... ah.

... But that's weird too! D: Someone save me from myself (and the power of imagination). ._.

And my dad has the best reaction. =_= I asked him, 'Serious! Wouldn't you freak out if you thought someone liked you?' He replied, 'Of course lah! What? Someone likes you? (<-Why do you think of it this way round first?!) You like someone? People are saying that you like someone? Don't care lah! Don't you always not care what other people think?' AHHHHHHHH and here I thought you'd be nice and say something constructive, my dear father. D:

On a side note, I've gone and found out the etymology of his name, for goodness knows what reason. ._. It makes sense in Cantonese. It does! ...What the hell am I doing. -cries- D:

You know what, we'll probably avoid each other for a while now. ._. Especially since my dad said the normal reaction is to freak out. But I really don't...! D:

Who's keeping count of how many 'D:'s have appeared so far? D:

Anyway, I need to wake up tomorrow and finish my term paper. ._. And for CIP. Remind me why I agreed to go again huh? People should know better than to ask me for favours. Or perhaps they do know better. D: Anyone else see a conspiracy yet?

Don't think I'll completely succeed in sleeping though. ._.

Damn it, this isn't even the sort of thing that can be solved over an instant message conversation. Or in front of anyone because it'll lead to more odd thought bubbles. If this screws up, I'll have one less thing to look forward to.

...damn.

I'm rambling, aren't I.

For the amusement of the general populace, I s'pose.

Ehhhhhhh why does everyone support/see something in _?! >< (Someone give me a table to hide under for the next year, please and thank you. ._.) Besides that, it's slightly sad in that I expect it to be rather awkward from now on. D: Damn, rather significant people seem not as blur as they seem and appear to have caught on to what's happening. D: D: D:

But anyway, batch outing was still fun today! I've missed seeing you'll around and talking about almost anything like we used to. ^^

Heh. My computer has 4% battery remaining. =_= You know what that means~ xD