Haha I've done horribly overall. D: But looking at the percentile makes me feel slightly better. o.o I don't know what to think about results anymore! I s'pose I'll just focus on doing as well as I can, instead of obsessing over how lousy my grades are. Haven't shown my parents the results yet, whoops! But I'm still waiting for my GP to come back. ._. Ohhh I think I'm averaging a D. -_-
Oh well! Next year's what's important! And I get this feeling my parents don't care, or think they don't have to care. ... ... which is somewhat true. Except it'd be nice if they cared, y'know? x_x
I did this experiment over dinner last night to prove a point~ My parents were discussing work politics heatedly, and I told my sister I bet I can say anything at all and they wouldn't hear it. So I told Nana that I planned on dying my hair red and getting expelled from school and guess what? It's true! Pffft. Next time I'll say something stupid like I plan to elope to Taiwan and hacked her bank account or something. =\ Zz I realise the dynamics in my family are a bit lacking, or maybe subverted. Considering I'm the one who listens to my mum complain, tells her to stop texting at the dinner table, cooks more often than she does, irons neater than she does, psuedo-counsels my sister and so on. I don't really mind, but when listed out, it kinda sucks. Meh. ._.
Oh hey, my life plan involved taking care of myself like I've always done, and search for as much happiness as I can while I was at it! I've always thought I couldn't get even close to being attracted to people! You see, majority of human beings are mean and self-centred, not to mention derive irrational pleasure from feeling superior to others, in any way they can. Sad truth. (The girls around me for the past 10 years have also convinced me that I have problems being attracted to the opposite sex, 'cause when they scream and blush at pictures/videos, I remain apathetic. -_-)
Plus mean people are still everywhere! People who compare marks, hmm? It's one of the things that annoy me, because they snatch your paper to look, whine and complain if you get higher than them, but say 'Not bad, I did better than you!' or 'How much did the rest of the class get? Oh good, I've done better than most of them.' I also don't approve of begging for marks, if you've earned them, it'll be obvious enough. (Of course genuine calculation errors are acceptable though!) But the only person you need to compare with is yourself. Only you know how much effort you're willing to put in, only you know how much better you can do. If you're good, being better than others comes naturally. How are you a friend if you're over the moon when people do badly? Shouldn't we all try to help each other, mug together, go for consults together if we're friends? I'm wasting energy ranting again, aren't I.
On to happier things!
I kinda burned Saturday on some Japanese exchange programme, thanks to JCC. The original plan was to teach them to make popiah while they taught us to make okonomiyaki. o.o But I ended up playing games with people! Haha, I borrowed the carrom board from upstairs 'cause council seemed kinda desperate. I've learnt that universally guys are pro at chapteh and carrom! O: Quite interesting, that. (Ahaha but it's cool to be called pro in a different language. xD) The Jap students taught us funny things like how to juggle and how to spin their version of a gasing~ On a side note, it's almost crazy trying to explain the rules of carrom in Japanese. ._. We spent the morning watching performances by CO, band, chinese dance and the Jap students. Haha, everyone seemed to have maintained their standard, but I thought the lighting was less eerie for chinese dance this time 'round.
Someone completely unexpected appeared and questioned the carrom board! Eheheh, and he appeared right when I got bored of standing around and tried to revise tao. ._. Apparently the duty to PW brought him to school, whee~ 'Twas quite a nice surprise. x) Whoops, my friend ended up shouting, 'Alyssa, come here! You're at JCC now, not wushu!'
Hmm some Japanese guy seemed to have gotten teased over me. o_O Everyone had to do some gift exchange which involved giving them a school pen and collar pin (oh how I wanted to steal that~ >D), and some random guy I hadn't even talked to gave me some towel and said 'I hope you like it', which is normal, but as I walked away I heard someone shout 'I like you!'. Heheh I kinda just ignored it. :x Anyway, what was I s'posed to say in response? Sorry, but I'm trying to figure out if I like someone else? ._. I don't even know how to say that in Japanese! What, ‘ごめんね，今ほかの人を好きか好きじゃないか考えていますよ！え、あの人はさっき私と話したのですよ。あのう，あなたは彼よりいいと思うか？’ ._.
Back to OP it is then! Though I've I&R to polish too.
