Cup of milk. :D

Haha, it's what's sitting on my table at the moment. xD By the way, the thing about drinking more milk helping you to grow taller is rubbish. ._. Not like it's worked this past 5 years~ Uh, but still I only drink Meiji since it doesn't really taste like milk. Make any sense? No? Good for you. :D

Here's another thing that doesn't make sense~ Wushu people are still as cheapskate as ever! xD Whenever someone produces food (or the food is just sitting on a table) that costs nothing, everyone flocks there! Heheh Sarah said we're all like birds, since birds like to flock to food. :D

More things that don't make perfect sense include seaweed chocolate! ._. All chocolate at first, then you suddenly detect seaweed. I wonder whose brilliant idea it was to put seaweed into chocolate. o_o Even stranger still! It's not bad.

Oh, and going overseas to take pictures of good looking people doesn't make sense either. -COUGH- Neither does changing one's name the equivalent of your spouse! Not that poking people into standing next to each other does for that matter. - MORE COUGHING-

(Oh well, that's what the glass of milk is for, ain't it?)

Since we haven't left the topic of nonsense, Venus's flu is ridiculous! It's lasted since last week and hasn't gone away. D: Poor Bean, we should give her more nourishment/sunlight perhaps.

In retrospect, letting my sister infiltrate our school is nonsensical too. ._. I've been infected by the nonsense she's full of! o_o

Doing holiday homework before the holidays end is something that makes sense though! So that's what I'll do. ^^

...the meaning of life?

My dad says I've too much time on my hands. ._. Which results in me thinking too much. O: Well, I've kinda figured there is no meaning in life, really. Maybe it's just in human nature to like to find meaning in things. I like meaning, don't you? :D But many purposes and meanings were probably attached to things because someone out there was searching for a meaning where there wasn't one. o.o

Over-thinking things is probably bad for your health. Ahaha~ I mean, I only managed to win in reversi when I played with Pei An when I didn't think. Oh dear. There go all my battle plans down the drain. Anyway! You get the point. xD

Eh what other secret?! D: Sarah! How could you know of a secret I don't know myself? o_o And why're you so busy~? ._. It's so difficult to arrange an outing. -_-

Venus why are you not online. -_- I was going to sleep until you asked me to go online~ D:

Back to sleep.

It's not good to owe people things.

Or so I think! Therefore, I shall post even though it's 12.30 and I'm sleepy from training. ._.

Well, if you must know, I've been spending my days altering a pair of pants that my grandma cut to 3/4 length a long time ago. I suspect it was because they were either torn or growing mould. ._. Anyway! It's actually easy to alter pants into shorts, but that's only when you've a fully functioning sewing machine around~ My mum's 20-year-old sewing machine isn't exactly fully functioning. Imagine friction burn from pulling at thread? Ah, now you see. Y'know, this is how sewing gets frustrating.

Speaking of domestic things, I've been trying to cook udon too. My sister has had this obsession with kitsune cup noodles the past week or so, but they're really unhealthy. ._. So... I've been trying to cook the authentic version. ... ...which she rejected. D; GAH. It's interesting how no oil is used in the process. o_o まじで。Meh, challenge accepted to learn to cook udon that she will eat. -_-

Other than that, I've been trying to read sci-fi books! Only Bluey knows why. -_- (But I reckon I can review them for I&I since it deals with 'the human condition' in parallel universes.) So far, Dune's pretty interesting 40 pages in, but I've quite a long way to go. My dad recommends the Foundation series by Issac Asimov! He was telling me how nice it would be if a movie series was made out of it, 'cause it'd make the book a whole lot easier to understand. I offered to produce it if I ever had the money, but that's... unlikely. :D Never hurts to have nice ideas though!

Sorry if I don't sound coherent, but I am pretty sleepy. ><

Ohhh but Venus has transplanted back to Singapore and taken root! :D It's so fun to uproot her with 'plant references'. Oh, and lame jokes too. >D We must go for lunch soon so I can sprinkle her with more chagrin~

Cheng Yong's back too! Now I feel bad for being useless when I've no maps to refer to and having to get his dad to drop me off at an MRT station. D: Serious, I'll bring a street directory next time we've CC training. >< It's funny how I can read maps well but get lost anyway. o_o Ahaha oh actually I'm not really allowed to hitchhike all the way home, if not I'd have followed Jiahe. ._. My dad's logic is this: If other people's dad can send me home, my own dad should send me home. o.o Jiahe, if you were female it'd help with the issue too. ...huh. 'Cause my mum has an imagination similar to the Amazon rainforest. =_=

I spent Wednesday...? Oh! Out with Pei An and her CCA mates I don't know personally. ._. Ahahahaha. They were looking for badminton supplies! Did you know Daiso sold 2 rackets and a plastic shuttlecock? Which means each racket costs less than a dollar! O: Cheapskate~ :D I've also learnt the difference between guys' and girls' attitude towards shopping. ._. And that I'm just a patient guy in this case. o_O Her CCA mates were sighing and shaking their heads at how we could walk into shops, while I just stoned at the accessories, shoes, stationery she got excited about. Whoa, I realise we moved from Queensway to IMM to Clementi. Not bad, at least I feel less like a sloth.

I kinda need to go dry my hair. ._. Need both hands, so no more typing~

雨季了！

I just realised it's been raining every single day, without fail. o_o Reckon Singapore's drainage system is really not bad! x)

Oh dear, sorry Cheng Yong, didn't realise it was...6.50 am there. ._. I really I hope no one woke up or anything from the IM. D':

Bah, I really have nothing to say today.

Except maybe it being the rainy season means it's good weather to take a nap. ^^ But I can't unless I want insomnia. HMM this is a dilemma indeed.

Well, I'm off to weigh the pros and cons of sleeping then!

Since you left a tag, Sarah, I shall continue typing for a bit. xD

Oh right! The owl. ^^ Found the video~ :D

So very cute. xD

Ah.

Ehhhhh I'm being dao-ed by the only person online at this time. D: Didn't expect Cheng Yong to have internet access! o.o (But I've no idea what the time difference is~)

But I'm so boreddddd. Stuck in a room at my mum's workplace at the moment. ._. Pfffft.

Well, uh, Rurouni Kenshin is pretty interesting. It has the feel of an anime from a decade ago though! ... I s'pose that's a fact to begin with. o_o

And it goes like this.

I didn't have a good title in mind today, so I just stole a line from the radio. xD Eheheh.

Life is still either boring or unproductive! ._. People are still flying off one after another... -_- Susi's left for Indonesia, Pei An will be going home and Wai Yan's left for Vietnam so it seems? And Ching Yee will be going for OCIP in 2 weeks time. O: Ah, air travel.

Oh hey, the date was pretty cool yesterday! 20/11/2011. It might be more interesting than 11/11/11! o.o

I went to school for econs remedial on Friday (and didn't actually attend econs remedial -cough-) and realised I really need to revise! ._. I think everything left my head after promos. D: Oh, I ended up mugging econs with Yvonne, which was quite effective ahaha. :D

Sneaking into the SRC lab was fun too~ xD (I doubt I'm allowed to be in there huh, Ching.) The chemical fumes and the poisonous fridge are a good test for your immunity to such things. On the other hand, Ching Yee and Fan Yi chasing each other around with uncapped markers and chairs test your sanity! Well, I've to give credit to Zheng Xiang and the going about asking people to greet Men Quan in some (any!) kind of way too. xD Meow~

Training was strangely slack today. O: Maybe it's due to the absence of too many people! ._. But the idea of putting guys in purple biao yan fu? HAHAHA. But seriously, the colour doesn't really suit them. o_o I'd like to see them wear it for fun though!

Speaking of training, Jiaolian hasn't stopped trying to get me to ask Jiahe to let me hitch a ride home! 怎么能不不好意思呢？！D: 而且完全不关‘另外一个’的事，反而跟我老爸有关系咯！._____. And ahaha I don't know how to answer his ‘你住哪里？’~ I don't know how to describe where I live though I've lived in Queenstown for over a decade now. o.o Impossible, but true.

Oh. The thing on my shirt is really meant to be a penguin with spiked hair, it seems. -_- (Looks kinda like Bang Ying somehow! Hmm.) I think it's the cutest Sanrio character though, since it has an attitude problem and isn't pink or mouth-less! o_o

<---- It's called Badtz-Maru. ._.

Anyway, I feel retarded watching Bleach movies to amuse myself. >< Honestly, sleeping would be more productive, wouldn't it? Oh well.

Perhaps I should email Venus instead (provided I find her email address)~ :D

Scotland sounds exotic, don't ya think? ._.

Seriously, it's like... a remoter place than the UK. Somehow. Maybe it's 'cause there isn't much news from that area, unlike the riots in London.

Watched 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 with Yi Jia this morning! o.o Come to think of it, I've never been out with her before. ._. I think? To me class outings are somewhat obligatory, so they don't completely count. Bah, she's flying off to Scotland (too) at 1.20am?! >< Strange time for a flight if you ask me. Haha, 'twas amusing trying to find a timing to watch the show in the morning~

The movie itself was pretty funny! xD Normally, I don't like to watch romance 'cause the storylines are cliched/exaggerated/nauseating. The plot was quite surprising! o.o I shall not post spoilers, heh. :D

Eating breakfast at Delifrance was somewhat surreal. o_o The whole cafe was so empty, save this bouncy little girl and her parents in one corner, and two Caucasian ladies in the other. Didn't know the pastries there were affordable, haha~

Can I say this year has been strange? I've never missed school so much before! ._. Perhaps primary and secondary school life was quite aimless anyway, so it wouldn't bother me to be out of school. But there's suddenly this large chasm where 'school life' is meant to be. Hmm, could it explain the urge to get out of the house, go somewhere, do something? If not, I don't know what the urge is. >< Anyway, I'm plagued by paranoia when I leave my mind alone to itself. D: Intricate webs of life and death you wouldn't want in your head.

Oh dear, either I'm catching a cold, or someone's talking about me. xD I vote the former!

Help! I'm in a dilemna. ._. I can't nap because I need to wake up for first aid duty tomorrow, but I'm sleeeeeepy. D: How now?

The proportion of HCl is to everything else in my body has just gone up.

In other words, my mum is starving us again for some unknown reason. ._. Shall bash around on my keyboard to stave off hunger~ And people wonder why I can still function when hungry! o.o But being used to bad things doesn't make it any less bad. =\

Like being used to boredom and loneliness doesn't make it a good thing, even if you're rather desensitized to it! ._.

...anyway, Sarah I'm surprised you didn't know the term 暧昧 existed! Yep, it's pretty apt sometimes if you ask me. xD But still! Friends can be friends right? No? Right? :D Ehhhhh.

YAY my dad's back, so I reckon we've a reason to find food now. >D

Like I said!

Another song about friendship~ ^^

伯牙絕弦

作曲：王力宏
作詞：阿信/阿噗

知人知面 知己知彼 又知心 古人說 這就是所謂知音
相知相惜 相親相愛 也相憶 朋友妳 會不會常把我想起
何年何月 何日何時 再相聚 何時能 把酒言歡暢回憶
很多很多 很深很深 的回憶 很多歌 我只想要為妳唱起

春秋時期 遠近知名伯牙琴藝 沈魚也出水 馬兒仰秣聆聽
聆聽 寂寞 的聲音 舉世知名 不如 一個知音
直到子期 聞琴解開伯牙心境 高山流水 風景似有靈悉
高山青 流水靜 如鏡 無言卻勝過有言的天地

聽 宮商角徵羽 那歌詞未寫上的是那份 弦外的延長音
斟一杯酒 一抱拳 一句關心 在千年之後 再延續 不變的旋律
當 春雪融夏景 秋風為我捎封信
冬 冬鑼隆冬牆 冬 冬鑼隆隆冬牆牆 又是思念的四季

知人知面 知己知彼 又知心 古人說 這就是所謂知音
相知相惜 相親相愛 也相憶 朋友妳 會不會常把我想起
何年何月 何日何時 再相聚 何時能 把酒言歡暢回憶
很多很多 很深很深 的回憶 很多歌 我只想要為妳唱起

某年某月 某天伯牙再訪子期 風景依舊綠 子期卻已歸西
觸景 觸琴 即傷情 伯牙絕弦 只因再無知音
千年過去 當我再度撥弄琴韻 更多冷箭 更多冷言冷語
請妳聽 請輕輕 傾聽 唱給我永遠不離棄的知音

聽 宮商角徵羽 那歌詞未寫上的是那份 喔 喔喔
斟一杯酒 一抱拳 一句關心 在千年之後 再延續 不變的旋律
當 春雪融夏景 秋風為我捎封信
冬 冬鑼隆冬牆 冬 冬鑼隆隆冬牆牆 又是思念的四季

知人知面 知己知彼 又知心 古人說 這就是所謂知音
相知相惜 相親相愛 也相憶 朋友妳 會不會常把我想起
何年何月 何日何時 再相聚 何時能 把酒言歡暢回憶
很多很多 很深很深 的回憶 很多歌 我只想要為妳唱起

分享。^^

Forgot that song existed until I read the papers this morning where there was an article about 伍思凯。O: Thought the name sounded familiar, so I googled and lo and behold, a song I knew! :D

I like Chinese songs about friendship, yay. :D Somehow friends are underrated when people compare friendship with love! But I think you spend your earliest years loving your friends? Friends really brighten a world that'd otherwise be dark. >< Eternally grateful and overjoyed that I've had the luck to meet certain people in this life~ ^^

Huh but anyway darn it seems quite a few people have OP over and done with and are going out/have gone out to celebrate. Gah, I've 3 more days to go. o.o It was fun running into unexpected people though! (As it always is. xD)

Oh, in case you're wondering why I'm so free as to blog, my group members have gone for lunch/pray for senior/are late. o_o Ah, life.

Of fans. o.o

Firstly, the one blowing in my face is reigniting my flu. D: Secondly, the one I'm related to by blood and live with. Yes, the one who wanted to shove a 'happy birthday' note under the front door of someone who lives just too conveniently close! AHAHA moving on.

Ching your dream is... disturbing. ._. Maybe it really means something, since it's so elaborate. o_o Meh, I haven't talked to you face-to-face in a while! >< And oh no, why're self-doubting too? D: ... ... ...guess you'd like to know Pei An supports your theory too. ._. Good god. (<--Heheheh gg.)

But what exactly is obvious, huh? Everything's foggy to me~

Wrong Sarah! YOU'RE CUTE. >D Nice to know you're in a similar plight! xD Whee~ You should go write that book! You've no idea how much people earn writing misleading things like that. :D And sleeping under tables is just a convenient thing.

My group and I kinda failed trying to rehearse OP today! D: Somehow the slides and scripts still don't go together! So we sort of wasted time. ._. Going to school tomorrow to hold OP rehearsals part 2! Ahaha.

Spending Saturday with Pei An was interesting? xD Uhh somehow unexpected people I don't know personally turned up. O: But I'm not sure if it's appropriate to talk about here? So I shan't. Other than that she dragged me into many shops. ._. I realise we technically spent the whole day talking about lots of things, whee~ The particularly fun thing was how she had dinner with my family, as well as watch them force me get a new phone. o.o Felt kinda bad watching her get interrogated, but I s'pose that's normal parent behaviour. xD

Need to wake up tomorrow if I want to hitch a ride to school, so I shall go~ ^^

言之尚早！

It's a nice song. :D And it makes a lot of sense. Something along the lines of how you can't predict anything at all. Your life as it is now could change completely and unexpectedly. ._. True, which is why we should try not to regret anything. 凡事要看开一点，凡是尽全力。Though that's somewhat an oxymoron, it makes sense to me. Hmm.

I don't know how much of CY's 'I'm fine!' to believe...? .-.

EH NOOOO SARAH WHAT 'SO CUTE'! D:

(My mind's still subconsciously driving me crazy with the idea that I'm so old already and life's so short and what if I decided I regret everything and I should have done this and I should have done that and I need to do this and that and you see why I'm going insane. Not to mention the other subconscious thing. D:)

Funny thing is, I was playing it with the speakers in the classroom. Probably annoyed some people in the room, considering the song's in Cantonese, heh. o_o

But then again they might be too engrossed in bridge to care! xD

I need to add in another slide to our presentation, but the software only allows one computer to log in at once for the changes to be saved properly. Oh well. -_-

Oh I never knew such gigantic seaweed packets existed! Our CT rep randomly went and bought many of them.

Did you know I could barely fit under the teachers' table? ._. Anyway, it seemed like a good place to nap at the time. You see, most people walk around the table so the underside should be relatively cleaner, the floor is flat (unlike a row of chairs) so it doesn't hurt as much. I reckon people won't kick you either, unlike when you sit at tables and chairs. Additionally, it muffles sounds a bit, so that's good. x)

Haha whee~ Going out with Pei An on Saturday(randomly!). She said she was just looking for company and that everyone else she asked before me refused her. o.o I haven't spent much time with her for pretty long! Ever since we changed classes, that is.

Maybe I should just leave the classroom now (and stop driving other people crazy). Anyway, it's 11 minutes to 4pm, or our official dismissal time. ... I wonder.

Oh. And the results of the experiment I cut short? It just makes you miss talking to the person. =_= There'll be another round of this experiment (involuntary this time) soon. -cries-

...can't watch people cry.

I really can't! Makes me feel useless/of no help whatsoever/ depressed and makes me cry too. Damn it.

Oh. I think I'll just kill the experiment, since it's just somewhat sadomasochistic. ._. And the purpose of the experiment was to clear my mind! But it's just as full as ever, except the content changed a little bit. Tch.

PW is painful.

I'm so very tired. And falling sick.

Objectionable Presentation.

That's what OP truly should stand for! D: Heheh I should be busy with my slides but I don't feel like doing a thing at the moment.

Damn, how is it even possible that weird conversations can occur before school officially begins for the day! O: Anyway, Susi has been influenced by Ching Yee's mind! Or did you have it in you all along, dear Susi? I never knew. -_-

Hello Yee Win~ Welcome to the grand total of 2 or 3 people who read this blog. xD I don't know if the stuff in Jap is grammatically correct! x)

Whee~ I shall go! :D

100th post!

嘿，跟之玮比的话我慢百拍呀！Considering she's at her 1100th post. xD

HAHAHA YES Ching it's all your fault! Congratulations on succeeding in inception. D: Nothing's making sense! And I can't clear thoughts from my head. >< BAH I MUST FINISH MY DENIAL. D: I doubt I'm making sense to anyone reading this, but never mind.

Editing WR is a pain! I feel like I'm repeating myself which is wrong but apparently certain phrases must be repeated so it's confusing overall. Then there's s'posed to be this line of argument which I can't quite get either. Wonderful.

Oh hey results have been moderated, so that's good news~ :D At least now I have a B...? At least.

Haha classmates are sometimes funny~ The guys were being lame and pretending to google unspeakable things using my laptop when all they actually wanted was to watch soccer highlights. O: And I don't know what got into Joel to pat me. ._. And they've been trying to insinuate that I like...people and have been fishing for a name. x_x But I don't know myself (see above paragraph) so too bad. Uhh... Despicable me minions are impossibly cute! xD I never knew mini movies existed, so thanks Yan Ni~ x)

I reckon my posts have been making less and less sense. ._. But almost no one knows this blog exists so it's quite private anyway. o.o

Farewell then. :D

Life is illuminatingly dismal.

Haha I've done horribly overall. D: But looking at the percentile makes me feel slightly better. o.o I don't know what to think about results anymore! I s'pose I'll just focus on doing as well as I can, instead of obsessing over how lousy my grades are. Haven't shown my parents the results yet, whoops! But I'm still waiting for my GP to come back. ._. Ohhh I think I'm averaging a D. -_-

Oh well! Next year's what's important! And I get this feeling my parents don't care, or think they don't have to care. ... ... which is somewhat true. Except it'd be nice if they cared, y'know? x_x

I did this experiment over dinner last night to prove a point~ My parents were discussing work politics heatedly, and I told my sister I bet I can say anything at all and they wouldn't hear it. So I told Nana that I planned on dying my hair red and getting expelled from school and guess what? It's true! Pffft. Next time I'll say something stupid like I plan to elope to Taiwan and hacked her bank account or something. =\ Zz I realise the dynamics in my family are a bit lacking, or maybe subverted. Considering I'm the one who listens to my mum complain, tells her to stop texting at the dinner table, cooks more often than she does, irons neater than she does, psuedo-counsels my sister and so on. I don't really mind, but when listed out, it kinda sucks. Meh. ._.

Oh hey, my life plan involved taking care of myself like I've always done, and search for as much happiness as I can while I was at it! I've always thought I couldn't get even close to being attracted to people! You see, majority of human beings are mean and self-centred, not to mention derive irrational pleasure from feeling superior to others, in any way they can. Sad truth. (The girls around me for the past 10 years have also convinced me that I have problems being attracted to the opposite sex, 'cause when they scream and blush at pictures/videos, I remain apathetic. -_-)

Plus mean people are still everywhere! People who compare marks, hmm? It's one of the things that annoy me, because they snatch your paper to look, whine and complain if you get higher than them, but say 'Not bad, I did better than you!' or 'How much did the rest of the class get? Oh good, I've done better than most of them.' I also don't approve of begging for marks, if you've earned them, it'll be obvious enough. (Of course genuine calculation errors are acceptable though!) But the only person you need to compare with is yourself. Only you know how much effort you're willing to put in, only you know how much better you can do. If you're good, being better than others comes naturally. How are you a friend if you're over the moon when people do badly? Shouldn't we all try to help each other, mug together, go for consults together if we're friends? I'm wasting energy ranting again, aren't I.

On to happier things!

I kinda burned Saturday on some Japanese exchange programme, thanks to JCC. The original plan was to teach them to make popiah while they taught us to make okonomiyaki. o.o But I ended up playing games with people! Haha, I borrowed the carrom board from upstairs 'cause council seemed kinda desperate. I've learnt that universally guys are pro at chapteh and carrom! O: Quite interesting, that. (Ahaha but it's cool to be called pro in a different language. xD) The Jap students taught us funny things like how to juggle and how to spin their version of a gasing~ On a side note, it's almost crazy trying to explain the rules of carrom in Japanese. ._. We spent the morning watching performances by CO, band, chinese dance and the Jap students. Haha, everyone seemed to have maintained their standard, but I thought the lighting was less eerie for chinese dance this time 'round.

Someone completely unexpected appeared and questioned the carrom board! Eheheh, and he appeared right when I got bored of standing around and tried to revise tao. ._. Apparently the duty to PW brought him to school, whee~ 'Twas quite a nice surprise. x) Whoops, my friend ended up shouting, 'Alyssa, come here! You're at JCC now, not wushu!'

Hmm some Japanese guy seemed to have gotten teased over me. o_O Everyone had to do some gift exchange which involved giving them a school pen and collar pin (oh how I wanted to steal that~ >D), and some random guy I hadn't even talked to gave me some towel and said 'I hope you like it', which is normal, but as I walked away I heard someone shout 'I like you!'. Heheh I kinda just ignored it. :x Anyway, what was I s'posed to say in response? Sorry, but I'm trying to figure out if I like someone else? ._. I don't even know how to say that in Japanese! What, ‘ごめんね，今ほかの人を好きか好きじゃないか考えていますよ！え、あの人はさっき私と話したのですよ。あのう，あなたは彼よりいいと思うか？’　._.

Back to OP it is then! Though I've I&R to polish too.

I beg your pardon?

SARAH~ I hope you're feeling better now! D: If not must drink more water, sleep more and remember your vitamin C, okay?

Hmm the Bean has grown wings and flown to China (again!). xD Tsk, somehow I can't create an account to vote for her on that competition website! Shall try again later. Strangely enough, my dad's currently away in Hong Kong too. O: But he'll be back on Monday, whereas Venus... won't be back anytime soon. ._.

The rubbish relationship talk has just made me more confused. D: If I go along with people's insinuations, I can't even say it's infatuation! I don't know anymore. -_- What the heck, I'm giving myself 6 months to think things through/reject funny ideas. Damn it, someone needs to invent a real pensieve where you can remove thoughts instead of memories. D: Tch, this is somewhat screwing with my life plans. ._.

Anyway, I s'pose I shouldn't be contemplating stuff yet since I haven't exactly eaten anything for the day. ._. Bye now.

Well, what is that I hear?

Chiding. ._. Not directed at me, mind you.

But ironically I sometimes wonder if I was more trouble, my parents would care more. Ah, I'm starting to see how some three year-olds think. o_o

Anyway, dinner was fun! :D HELLO SUSI LONG TIME NO SEE. And actually, I haven't seen Venus in a while too. o.o

Hmm shall go to sleep when the house is more conducive! Or maybe I'll just sleep on the sofa tonight since my mum probably can go on for the next hour with my sister. -sigh- They should have picked somewhere that's not our room to scold. ._.

Well. Wish me luck sleeping. -_-

It's time to get over it.

到了这地步，我开始觉得自己浪费了好多心思在这群人上。剖开了胸，掏出了心，他们给最多的在乎却只有在心上撒盐罢了。去你们的。我不会再为你们浪费时间浪费泪水了，这样的友情我不稀罕。对了，剩下的好心人你们保重吧，我已尽了力，但是帮不了你们，更是自身也难保。

I've half a mind to publicly say that and kick the nearest piece of furniture while I'm at it. But don't worry, I'm not going to. But the fact is that I was throwing my version of a tantrum yesterday, which is to not talk in addition to walking a long distance in the rain.

The thing is, it's not that I don't care, but that I think I'll be the only one suffering if I cared. But things like this have an accumulative effect, so I s'pose I just lost it yesterday. I'm usually fine being alone, but even I'm susceptible to being lonely. It's just the feeling that other people can celebrate the end of promos that gets to me.

发泄完了！那就算了吧。

Yep, anyway, yesterday I was holding my solitary celebration which involves reading a book. :D I'm still not finished with it~ The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo is really quite good. One of the few fiction books to hold my attention for an afternoon in quite a while. I plan to finish it after this post. xD

Other than that, my mum and I went to watch 1911:辛亥革命 which is rather historically accurate. Y'know sometimes in historical movies they change things so as to make it more dramatic. ._. It was really sad! And I realise the 10th of October is around the corner. o.o

Haha, I've never gotten higher than I B3 or B4 for history! It's my worst subject, I should think. xD But history is fascinating, though sometimes I think it has the same effect as seeing a train derail. o_o Morbid but it makes you want to know so that you can do your best to prevent it from repeating itself. Whee it's fun to talk to Venus about history! xD But I think she puts in a lot into mugging for it too. o_o Are you currently taking history? O: It helps to have background, but it's possible to just pick it up like I did for geog. ._.

Oh look, blogthings are as funny as ever. xD

You Are the Red Bird

You are self-effacing and unassuming. You are free of swagger and bravado. You are good natured and purposely try to keep things simple. You don't like too many details. You are a study in contradictions. There is no one word to completely sum you up. You deflect drama. You can get everyone laughing and smiling again.

What Angry Bird Are You?

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

Well, that was anticlimatic.

Oh look! Promos are over, but I was happier yesterday than I am today. O: The shocking truth! I don't know, but I feel mean yet justified in blaming people for my mood by being antisocial/boring/indecisive. -sigh-

I shouldn't have been having fun mugging for math, but I was. Ahaha, talk about being distracted~ But do you have any idea how hilarious it can be? 'Noooo, I'm so close(to the answer)!' or 'Did you check moodle for answers?' (Hi Venus, sorry for being blur!) or 'Where's the irony?' or audible joints (oh damn) or the shocking smses (Hi Sarah~ 8D) or the incessant laughing (at nothing).

Well, at least promos are over? :D

...who am I kidding. =_= But okay, I shall get over it.

Yee Win! Continue to stress over it then, it's good for you. :D Hmm I've this impression that history interesting but more memorising and writing. Econs is secretly a science, I swear! It all makes sense so it isn't as hard to remember stuff, but that's just my opinion. Actually it's all quite subjective. You could ask Venus about history? In fact, she takes econs too. Most people take 4H2 or 3H2+1H1? H2 would imply more topics, but it's quite normal.

To the random guy? o_o I ramble too much so my replies are in my posts. I s'pose that's rather obvious right now though, haha. If not I'd be flooding my chatbox! And possibly risk seeming schizophrenic. ._.

OF COURSE NO ONE UPDATES THEIR BLOGS! ^^ No, not really, heh. What seems to have happened? >D

I should think that's enough vexation for a day. Time to sleep. xD

I figured a 10 minute post would do me some good!

Or some bad? Anyway, studies have shown taking a 15 minute break after 2 hours of mugging is good for you.

2 and a half hours of sleep, on the other hand, isn't very beneficial. By the way, there was a thunderstorm at 3am this morning! To hell with it all, I had to climb down from the top bunk and close the windows. It explains the uprooted tree near the canteen. -_- <--- (think my eyes look like this today. D: My eyes were as dry as the Sahara today. Eye drops are a good investment near promos.)

Haha the psuedo-centre-of-the-universe was right about promos being 6.5 times more stressful than blocks. :D See? I'm procrastinating and losing it!

Consequently, it's a bad time to inform us about intentions to change your corporate image! -sigh- Well, it's not like I don't infuriate myself as it is.

Anyway, GP was interesting in that our teacher was explaining the 'Pity.' at the end of my script! o.o At least she said 'the student who did question 12 normally writes very well', 'but [she thought he/she chose the wrong question this time]'. :d Whee~ Apparently 'philosophical' questions like 'Is giving always better than receiving?' are hard to answer 'cause they have shaky boundaries. Hmm.

Eh a lot of people are looking disheveled today! Maybe it's from all the mugging. Elevated stress levels must create static electricity! xD

On a side note, damn, I think I'm hallucinating. Or something. ._.

And now I've done it.

AHAHAHAHAHA OH NO I'VE WRITTEN A POEM. Which also means studying for promos is screwing with my head. D: Maybe if I decide not to metaphorically burn it I'll put it up here someday. But if I decide my current perspective goes away, I might metaphorically burn it. Make any sense? ...okay, no.

But anyway I&R needs to be dished some hatred, and my lower backache needs to go away.

Oh hello Yeewin~ How's life? :D I take Geog, Lit, Math and Econs~

Uncertainty. :D

Hahaha okay I suppose that face isn't appropriate. Anyway, dear Sarah, I might tell you what I'm doubting if I decide I'm doubting beyond a reasonable doubt. Or maybe I'll just tell you tomorrow. o_o

Oh whatever. I owe Yi Xiang money now. Some weird guy was trying to talk me into doing something strange with my debit card and hence blocking the atm machine. Zz. Therefore I couldn't pay for dinner! And Ching Yee didn't have enough so... ahaha.

Meh, back to work!

Someone lend me a leaf blower to clear the perpetual haze surrounding me, please.

I feel retarded now. I might give you a prize for guessing where I am now at 9am on a Saturday morning. -_- Well, I found out an hour ago that PW trial is NEXT Saturday. And here I was waking up at 6am and wondering why no one replied me at 7 something when I asked where were we holding it. ._.

Oh but now I feel like I disrupted Jiahe's napping in the huisuo. D: I'm sorry! I was shocked that the lock was off too. o_o

But I needed to get out of the house to go for a JCC thing anyway. Seiran-sai at the Japanese senior high in S'pore! :D I think it'll be fun. <--What am I saying 2 weeks from promos. ><

Haha since I'm up early I don't particularly feel like doing anything. ._. Oh darn. Think I'll read my book later though I should be mugging something. Like Lit. Which I still don't know how to mug. D:

Over the course of the week Ching and I concluded that it's inefficient to eat dinner with guys 'cause they're pretty indecisive. (Maybe that's an understatement. :d)

And Yixiang's a good person to study with because his focus is infectious. :D And his playlist is nice too, but that's just a perk. xD

Heheh Venus up at the huisuo is a rarity! x) But come to think of it, she's only willing to go up on Fridays~

Whee 没有你怎么办 is a nice song! But really sad. o.o

I think I tend to ramble rubbish when I'm nervous/feel awkward. O: So when I meet people for the first time, I comment on any random observation(s) I make or thoughts I have. .-. Ahahahahaha. Not to mention the laughing at my own jokes. Recently, I suspect it disturbs most people so... not good. But then again it might be good that only the people who can accept me stick around? ._. I don't know what to think.

Hmm I think I shall go now. The huisuo's windy~ Yay. :D

The irresistible temptation of something to say.

Denial: still my favourite state of being. Why else would I be lurking about here?

Procured a new copy of TIOBE, yay! I do hope having it in my possession will preventing another E grade from surfacing. =_=

I need to calm down. ._. Now I owe my econs tutor an apology after flaring up at his insinuation that I wasted my September holidays playing and resting. I'm sorry, I just feel overwhelmed again. I s'pose this isn't particularly good for my heart/lifespan in the long run.

Damn, must complete the next tutorial. Zz.

Similarly, I probably should learn to stop rambling too. Evidently, I'm prone to mental instability when doing math. Someone save me from myself and my insane laughter.

Quiet conversations and comfortable silences are nice, by the way. Incidentally, a positive externality would be their calming effect. Ah, but I bet there's a sneaky negative externality I can't identify skulking (as furtively as soil creep) somewhere nearby. Life is usually balanced that way, huh. ... ...糟糕。

But I see they don't cure rambling so off I go now! :D PW awaits.

Mm, sleepy.

I don't really like the new format of gmail/blogger. It looks like it's trying too hard to be modern and hence has flashy animation, blinking and pop up buttons. Ah well.

Yay 周华健。:D But 陈老师 (aka my ex-Chinese tuition teacher) said something along the lines of “周华健是老人家听的！我很喜欢听，但是我的学生当中只有你一个知道他是谁吧。” o_o

Shall join Ching in her mugging tomorrow~ Somehow I need to be in the mood to study. Before I go to bed and wake up the next morning, I need to psycho myself into believing it's really important to study and so I must get up and go to school to mug. ._. If not I'll just clock another 9 hours again. I hope some of that made sense.

Speaking of sleep, the readers' digest article says the optimum number of hours people should sleep is between 7 to 8. Any more or any less, and you're off to an early grave. Personally, I oscillate between 3-6 hours on school days and 9-11 hours on holidays. ... ... Wish me luck or pick out a funeral song, please and thank you.

Somehow everyone seemed rather angered yesterday. ._. Over... yeah, shan't go into details. But, I seem to just lurch into disappointment. Internally it sinks from neutral to 'oh, alright then.' Maybe it has something to do with expecting too much? I don't know. Perhaps it's because I'd automatically do it, or accept it without any fuss because it is no trouble at all!

Yes, we should go ahead and buy 2 cartons of juice. :D Like the Bean says, it's cost effective.

Please let my panic levels be low on Saturday. ._. Please let it be sunny too, I hate the hall to bits. D< While I'm at this, let me end up in a straight line, neither let go nor hit myself or anyone, and let every swing be audible! Feels like I'm asking for a lot, heh.

The pressure dial for promo is being turned up too. D: I swear my notes stack up to my knee (or more).

Continuing from where I left off, my CT's proposal! Her husband went and rented a yacht for the evening and made her search the boat a la 'Amazing Race' with clues leading to clues leading to a ring. ._. It's like something from a movie, haha. She told our male classmates they had permission to use the idea someday. o.o

Reminding myself of remembered things, this might end up joked about but Ching! If you haven't guessed yet, it's Hitsugaya. ^^

Yeah, probably going to need a walking stick in no time.

Well, this is a day or two late but teachers' day must be mentioned! o_o It felt particularly significant this year for some reason. Maybe it had something to do with having 2 schools to go back to (which are coincidentally all within walking distance of my current school). ._. The other thing would be how very important having good teachers seems to be this year. Y'know, back in primary school it was possible to not listen at all, then back at secondary school you could get away with 50% of your attention on the teacher? Perhaps now you have to listen lest 'U's come looking for you. Haha, okay, not funny.

(Honestly, teachers are more popular than pop stars on teachers' day. Have you ever seen the staff room so crowded? There wasn't even standing room and I couldn't quite see over the crowd.)

It was nice to see 4/9 again! Although it wasn't the best time of my life in Sec 3 and 4, I suppose absence does make the heart grow fonder? Ex-classmates were somehow a lot friendlier than they used to be/usually are! O: I say it's thanks to the happy-happy mood all 'round from visiting teachers. xD Heheh we were really efficient somehow in getting (free!)lunch. (And swiping the eclairs too in case anyone was wondering. o.o) It wouldn't be a bad idea to go back again next year, though we were talking about this and people came to a general consensus that J2 is a little too old. ._. ...really?

But I feel old! D: (As you've probably derived from the title.)

Dinner with HCWS was kinda fun. x) Yay Chingyee has good ideas~ ^^ Thanks for lending a spot in your house for me to stone around by the way! Your mum's really very hospitable. And so is your brother. o.o (Oh no, now you realise I can stalk you home. ._.)

Speaking of dinner, 教练 and 师母's 2 year-old daughter and her phobia of someone was highly amusing~ xD She was friendly to most people but determinedly ignored him the whole night until it was time for everyone to go home. o_o Whoa. Sarah was saying that she might grow up to be like 教练~ Champion at twisting words. :D Meh, that sounds bad, but 教练's really very nice and patient and funny~ It crazy how he hasn't gone into depression from our standard (or lack thereof) yet. ._. (But ahaha '黎珊，_在哪里？' isn't a good question to ask. ._. -insert coughing fit here- Right, moving on.)

Whee Venus being Venus managed to get everyone to wait patiently for her at the MRT station! >D (Ah but no one can beat the guy who was 1 full hour late. o_o -cough-)

Plus, I've been reminded of how much the opposite sex values their 面子？Or according to 教练，‘男生很害羞’。But I maintain that it's only common sense to evenly distribute people with different appetite sizes. ._. But alright, let's not harp on that.

CT dinner was interesting too~ (But Marche is frickin' expensive. D: D: D:) We didn't catch a glimpse of our CT's husband though! But she was telling us about her romantic proposal. ._. Seriously! It was rather 'romantic'.

Need to go now. This is henceforth 'to be cont'd'! :D

Alas, the definition of misunderstanding.

Nonono I think it's awkward. D: No one seems to get it! If I have to distance myself from anyone in my small circle of friends, it's going to be quite painful. ._. Serious. I get along with exceedingly few people. And screw this because I've been contemplating how not to mess up a friendship for the past 2 (at this rate it's going to be 4) days! I... should go talk to him and explain this is mostly to product of good intentions and imaginative minds. D: D: D: That I don't actually, uh, y'know... I've never gone about being nice to... ah.

... But that's weird too! D: Someone save me from myself (and the power of imagination). ._.

And my dad has the best reaction. =_= I asked him, 'Serious! Wouldn't you freak out if you thought someone liked you?' He replied, 'Of course lah! What? Someone likes you? (<-Why do you think of it this way round first?!) You like someone? People are saying that you like someone? Don't care lah! Don't you always not care what other people think?' AHHHHHHHH and here I thought you'd be nice and say something constructive, my dear father. D:

On a side note, I've gone and found out the etymology of his name, for goodness knows what reason. ._. It makes sense in Cantonese. It does! ...What the hell am I doing. -cries- D:

You know what, we'll probably avoid each other for a while now. ._. Especially since my dad said the normal reaction is to freak out. But I really don't...! D:

Who's keeping count of how many 'D:'s have appeared so far? D:

Anyway, I need to wake up tomorrow and finish my term paper. ._. And for CIP. Remind me why I agreed to go again huh? People should know better than to ask me for favours. Or perhaps they do know better. D: Anyone else see a conspiracy yet?

Don't think I'll completely succeed in sleeping though. ._.

Damn it, this isn't even the sort of thing that can be solved over an instant message conversation. Or in front of anyone because it'll lead to more odd thought bubbles. If this screws up, I'll have one less thing to look forward to.

...damn.

I'm rambling, aren't I.

For the amusement of the general populace, I s'pose.

Ehhhhhhh why does everyone support/see something in _?! >< (Someone give me a table to hide under for the next year, please and thank you. ._.) Besides that, it's slightly sad in that I expect it to be rather awkward from now on. D: Damn, rather significant people seem not as blur as they seem and appear to have caught on to what's happening. D: D: D:

But anyway, batch outing was still fun today! I've missed seeing you'll around and talking about almost anything like we used to. ^^

Heh. My computer has 4% battery remaining. =_= You know what that means~ xD

I don't wanna perform!

Blah I'm panicking and feeling sad and screwed and useless now.

Anyway, tumblr is amusing. Found funny things that would amuse the likes of Ching Yee. ._. And other people too, actually.

Oh look a cookie monster! :D

THIS is really...! o_o

I want this clock. xD

Chemistry.

I feel really lame right now! Don't know what made me spam YQ's wall with chem rubbish! xD And I'm still going ahead with the idea that I told Ching about. Haha chemistry's good fodder to subvert into retarded puns.

... ... I've officially been locked in the huisuo by someone thrice this week already! ._. Can't believe I forgot his surname for a moment there so there was a 10 second lag before I could shout at him. o.o

I've spent the last quarter of today slacking around. ._. As is obvious, even now. Venus and Ching Yee know a lot of cool songs! :D

Typing this reminds me of GP where we said the content of the majority of blogs is trivial, insignificant things. But hey, they're part of the lives of people, so it contributes the great scheme of things overall. Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it isn't there. o.o

Oh dear. According to the ethics quiz, mine veer towards subversive and anti-establishment. ._. Here I am someone who's always been seen as a goody-two-shoes by classmates. -raises eyebrows-

Maybe I should blog in a more formal fashion. =\ Following language and punctuation conventions, you know?

My mind tells me I should get off the computer, but seeing as I've lost it a while back perhaps I shouldn't.

Hmm I've an identity card to collect!

Oh I tried talking to some artificial intelligence thing called a cleverbot. ._. It's quite mean. (See below)

Cleverbot: Are you a human?

User: You think?

Cleverbot: Yes, I do think. Do you?

User: Why wouldn't I?

Cleverbot: I don't know that's why I asked.

User: Thought you were all-knowing.

Cleverbot: I think you give me too much credit.

User: Nah, I'm not a bank.

Cleverbot: Shame. I was hoping that you would give me some money. I am not a Hippo either.

User: That's alright. Then it would seem too much like an alternate universe.

Cleverbot: No, you are not intelligent to properly answer a simple question.

User: I only figured you would be intelligent enough to infer a simple answer.

Cleverbot: I'm rubber and you're glue.

But you realise it starting digressing. ._.

Lalala what am I doing I should get to sleep. :D

Hunger.

I want to eat a mushroom or two. =\ Really! I need dinner. ._.

'Kay bye ~ :D

Instability.

Of my mind that is. I'm losing my ability to laugh painful things off. Must be the fact that the total amount of sleep I have gotten over the past 3 days being less than of equal to 10 hours. Funny, shouldn't the minimum be 24 hours?

Wonder what it means when you can't stop laughing at how messed up life is at the moment. It's not even humorous, it's just wry. Combined with inability to comprehend passages, spell words you know on the first try, add 7 and 17 under 3 seconds, trying to get yourself killed through convincing Venus incoherence is logical and flinging carrom seeds at her, laughing till it hurts at whatever monosyllable Ching Yee throws at you, shouting and ranting for the first time in years at 7.30 in the morning and so on, so forth.

I'm losing my mind. I feel the urge to hit something. Serious.

I doubt I can pass the integration quiz tomorrow considering I have frickin' chapter 1 to finish writing by tonight.

On a side note, it is not staying in school that tires me out. In fact, after spending (not wasting!) 5 hours laughing/talking/playing/sleeping I can now understand my newspaper article. You on the other hand, tire me endlessly through your ranting which I can't seem to tolerate in this state, demands I do housework at this time and general aura of distaste of me you give off. Just screw off for a bit, will you? It's hard enough not to break down as it is. Give me a space to clear my backlog if you really understand what it means to be tired.

Why is today not Friday?

Oy vey, look at the time!

I just had to rant a bit since, well, I'm screwed either way.

Like I was telling Sarah, PW should really just go screw itself so it can be (re)productive and I wouldn't have to do a friggin' thing! O:

Hoho, discovered that my windows messenger is not functioning as it should. How well can it be functioning if it tricks you into believing your messages to your group have been delivered for over 2 hours and leaves you perplexed as to why they don't respond to your comments. ._. And discover they're scolding you for shoddy work. But 'tis okay, 'cause I know it's rightfully so.

Life is burning away right now. Tutorials 'need' to be done, WR needs to be written and researched, MAF must be choreographed and much practice must be put in (though we all know it's an impossible feat to improve whatsoever). What's summed up in a few words here is furtively a damned fold mountain (which are the highest on earth, by the way).

I'm sorry to everyone to whom I owe an apology. I know I'm screwing things up for you, but right now, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. Will try to catch up and dig my way out of my pit of screws with a screwdriver. Possibly.

The day I lose the propensity for satire is the day you should worry for my sanity. Not joking this time. ):

Pfffft 'Unwell' is a fitting song for if you go mad.

'...I should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something.'

Of railways, grades and magical people.

The title evokes Hogwarts images, doesn't it? =\

Bah. I see I have failed my teachers somewhat. o_o And I still have 3 more papers to receive, and those are the ones I have less faith in. D: Permission to live under a table somewhere and not come out?

Anyway, I see the whole populace of 661, Bukit Timah Road has decided to spend a portion of their half-day watching the boy with a scar on his forehead. ._. Tell me why I have this feeling it's all just hype. -_- We could always go find real people with real scars on their foreheads to stare at. =_=

Oh. Family conversations over lunch are amusing as ever. Take this to be my dad, this to be my mum, (this to be my sister) and this to be me.

'Recently, so-and-so's mum died from cancer! How do people get cancer anyway?'

'Cancer cells are mutated cells. Actually... everyone has them.'

('How do they tell which cancer is which cancer?')

'You see ah, if your nose has cancer you call it nose cancer. If your eye has cancer it's eye cancer. If you brain has cancer, it's brain cancer.'

'Huh you can get cancer in the brain?!'

'Brain cancer very serious one, you know!'

'...obviously.'

And so on. ._. The topic of mortality at our dining tables comes up quite frequently. D:

It's now 3 in the afternoon and I haven't gotten past exercise 2 of my I&I! Considering there are a grand total of eleven exercises, I can safely say I'm screwed. Not to mention stuff for WR, EoM, math and econs tutorial and the other 2/3 of my book for the book review. o_o

And. And. Is the thing about performing for real? ... D: It's a disturbing prospect (especially since I've only half our jiti left in my head and our competition video MIA).

Oh dear. I owe Bang Ying a favour or something for saving my wallet. O: Eternally grateful! ><

Oh eh hello Sarah my mum wants to go take a walk at the defunct KTM railway. -.- Ahaha.

The Cold War didn't take place in subzero conditions, serious.

I don't know if there's an underlying reason for wanting to read a book on the cold war. Maybe it's because everyone was mugging Chem on Thursday! Maybe it's 'cause it bothered Ching Yee who was mugging hard. ._. Had nothing better to do, haha. :D

Oh but I'm serious about the Cold War not having little to nothing to do with the environmental temperature. xD It had more to do with potential to wipe Earth off the face of the Universe. That would be one less satellite for Bang Ying. Aww. =\

Damn I should be doing some kind of work, especially since I've been slacking off the whole weekend. I've a good quote for this! 'Ah, but what the hell. You know it's just as well, 'cause after a while and a thousand miles it all becomes the same.' xD From 'The Entertainer', which isn't quite as appropriate.

I've started on my dark/angst fic, but I haven't finished my fluff one! D: Feel like slapping me yet? Haha. ._. I have a gap in my story blueprint for the part before the ending though. =(

Pffft. This is blatant frittering away of time. Oh my damn that sounds like sticking time onto a skewer and deep frying it in hot oil until it's crispy. :D And that sounded simultaneously edible and disturbing. o_o

Pardon me while I go off and fritter my brain. =_=

Time, like a stream.

Why does time pass so fast? In fact, time seems to go by even faster when you perceive the life you lead to be a good one. Somehow I feel happier now than in the past, thanks to some abstract sense of belonging. Time seemed to pass by a lot slower during primary school: doodling/reading unrelated things throughout class, taking the school bus home in silence, reading some more until I fell asleep when I got home but when I woke up the sky would not even have turned a shade darker.

Everyone is brought into this world the same way ice of a glacier melts to become a drop of water. This droplet inevitably flows downward to the ground, picking up new experiences and meeting and forming bonds with other drops of water. These accumulate into a stream and then into a river. The speed at which it flows gets faster and faster from the beginning of the journey to the end, where the water ends up in the sea, the life as you have led until that end. Perhaps it is a record of your personal experiences, or perhaps a source for humanity's collective consciousness to tap on. Whatever it is, it would have gone by fast and furious, the possibility of it being forgotten is near absolute. At the end, all the tumultuous episodes might mean nothing to everyone but you. Remembering to treasure the present has never seemed so important till now.

Damn I bet that was the result of withdrawal symptoms from tea or something. =_=

On to happier things! The insanity CCA mates are capable of is epic! xD I need to show the rest of you the relationship chart Ching Yee, Cheng Yong and I came up with. O: But I should really tear that page out of my lit lecture notebook before my lit teacher starts questioning my mental state. o_o

That's for tomorrow then! 'Cause I'm allowed to visit juniors for open house, yay~ :D

Sarah, your stories are very happy! And really good entertainment when I'm not supposed to entertain myself. :D :D :D You know how it's nicer to read/watch happy things when life is tiring/sad? ._.

I just realised that I'm supposed to be supporting people somewhere. o_o Eek. I'll... ... figure something out.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I AM 100% GOING TO MOVE OUT THE SECOND I HAVE A CHANCE TO.

Because nothing in my room is worth keeping, or keeping in the order I like it to.

Of murderous conundrums. :D

What is there to say? xD Going to huangcheng was an amusing experience! Oh no, I hope everyone went home too tired or too engrossed with the actual play to remember the malu people running across the hall. =x Ahahahaha darn. Anyway, the plot was rather interesting! 黄城 about 黄城, not a bad idea. x) Yay, spotted Susi on stage~ ^^ I didn't talk to Yi Ting much/enough though. =(

More interesting was all the conundrums that we started talking about. xD Some were simply interesting, but most were disturbing. o_o Seaweed, shipwrecks, infants in freezers, broken matchsticks, funerals, dolphins and turkeys all add up to good entertainment, haha. Apologies to the people in the bus for our rowdiness! >< Too bad our combined consciousness couldn't conjure up some stories in their entirety. =\ Wonder if anyone's tried to go home and remember... My personal favourite is still the one which goes: A group of people wander into a place, where a sign said 'More seats upstairs'. But they couldn't find any stairs, why? Heh. (; The other one which involves someone going to check the train schedule and never coming back is pretty interesting too. :D

Eh but could people be any more punctual? :D Whee~ I'm not trying to take a stab at anyone! It's just a genuine curiousity as to how people end up late. o.o And I'm sorry we both just kept staring at our phones until Chingyee came! ><

I just realised we're missing training for every Monday we miss. D: Degeneration is painful/annoying/worrisome/sad. ._. And lit lectures~ D: Noooooo~

This is terrible. I've just slept the past two days away for some unknown reason. D: Consequently, I have left myself a day to complete three (or more) days of work. o_o Well, I foresee dire consequences.

Bye for now! :D

The honour of person-most-able-to-incite-me goes to...

Hold on a moment. Skip the next part if you'd rather not read rants. Here goes:

Ridiculous. Utterly ridiculous. Time and time again you have proven you have no respect for me. And you think you can be respected in return? Sorry, but I believe in reciprocation. The end. It's not like you don't know how important my body can be to me. Are you just trying to find excuses to inflict pain on me because you think I have a high pain threshold? Heck, it's not even a case of whether or not I can withstand pain. You've crossed a line there, truly. Obviously you feel compelled to bruise me or something, to feed your sadism or amusement or whatever. Normal people stop when they're told to. Back to the point, obviously I am a possession of yours, and hence should be treated as such. Feel free to use my toothbrush to scrub the sink then deny it, feel free to empty my cupboard, feel free to drown my jackets in perfume and not displace it with detergent before returning them to me. Really, just go ahead.

It doesn't take much to make me happy. Clean clothes, clean cups, silence when I need it? Thank you very much.

-END RANT-

Ah well, carrom is addictive! :D Hahaha.

I have succeeded in squandering my extra time away today! o_o The only productive thing I've done is read a few chapters of Women in Love (which is a weird book). Uh, I've just learnt how to say 'I don't give a f-' in French from it. :x Oh but I've finished my poem! And yes, by my standards. x) No Sarah, laminating/decorating/printing (in colour) and leaving it lying around in... places is not a good idea! ._. And huhhhhhh I'm the only lit person besides Yi Ting in our batch? Oh well.

Stoning around with Venus is quite fun actually! xD (No, there's no danger of getting killed, I assure you.) Lots of weird topics like chinese checkers/mahjong/Hitler spoof videos/siblings/cantonese/teachers/acquaintanceship/milk/math/cheese come up. o.o Reminds me of following Grace all the way to Boon Lay for dinner/Ching Yee all the way to MOELC. To be honest, it's pretty interesting.

Plus I discovered the thing constantly lurking about somewhere in the relative front of someone's mind is food! o_o Ahaha, it's quite cute actually. But perhaps food is what lurks about in many other people's minds too, for all I know.

Oh no, my dad watching The Source Code makes me want to watch too. ._. Eh but he kinda gave spoilers to disturb me. ):

By the way, certain people should stop fake!flirting with me. xD Or not. It's too funny/energizing on the receiving end!

Perhaps I should post a checklist of work here:

1)Human geog essay (migration)

2)PI!

3)Physical geog DRQs

4)Physical geog essay (earthquakes/volcanoes)

5)GP group work (CQ+PQ>IQ), remind/email Sara

6)Human geog group work - tutorial 4/5?

7)Finish Women in Love

8)Econs tutorial

9)Math tutorial?

10)Other GP group work, research 'tourism'

Damn life. A nice list of 10 equally daunting tasks to complete.

D:

Damn it some people make me want to cry. ); And damn it the same people need hugs. D: If only it wasn't inappropriate and the world didn't have social norms (read: hidden laws with horrible consequences if you break them)...

'Traditional' games you play with real people are actually really fun, but require you to practice until you're skilled. o_o Yep.

Oh. The original intention of this post was to tell Venus that I found out what the person was mumbling about in 洗刷刷。:D So, here goes!

洗刷刷 洗刷刷 洗刷刷 洗刷刷 洗刷刷 123 GO

冷啊冷 疼啊疼 哼啊哼 我的心

哦 等啊等 梦啊梦 疯啊疯 请你

*拿了我的给我送回来 吃了我的给我吐出来

闪闪红星里面记载 变成此时对白

欠了我的给我补回来 偷了我的给我交出来

你我好像划拳般恋爱每次都是猜

伤啊伤 晃啊晃 装啊装 多可惜

哦 想啊想 藏啊藏 嚷啊嚷 请你

*

洗刷刷 洗刷刷 洗刷刷 洗刷刷 洗刷刷 123 GO

唉 天天猜 唉 夜夜呆 唉 时时怪 唉 已不再

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... ... that was a strange/entertaining song. o.o

Oh my goodness Chingyee! How can human beings=hamsters? xD

Hmmm...

I really am capable of generating strange images based on a general description someone gives me. ._. It's mental torture when it's an external speaker telling you how impalement works, but can be interesting yet disturbing when it's based on a Ching Yee idea of _ jumping _! o_o Yes. I completely needed to know what people I associate with have been doing with the past years of their life for entertainment. x_x Ahaha. What's funnier is that learning of this was the highlight of my day! ...what does that say? :D

Anyway, to me entertainment can be as simple as seeing 'blogwalkers' find my blog and tagging more than my friends do! xD Which is amusing, by the way, for the information of anyone who decides to have a look at this site again! :D

'Kay then. Back to PI. D:

Oh yes. ._. I know no one reads this blog but HCWS ALL THE WAY! JIAYOU TO THE END! :)

(... just had to get that out of my system if not my mind will be wandering during class + facebook is awkward.)

Capped at 5 runners? D:

Awwwwww 想要当跑腿也不行！D: But hey, wushu's quite cool in that aspect. Isn't it the norm to avoid being a runner and doing stuff for people? xD I'd expect no one to volunteer in most situations. Are we still allowed to go support after school? 加油 for comps!

Steering away from wushu, I can't believe myself sometimes. =_= My mind has some evil influence over me that makes me sad over things that most people find ridiculous/read too much into. Who else cries over Tess? D: Besides our lecturer, I mean. And yes, when I see people fall sick or injure themselves I get sad too. It's a phenomenon that's part of my psyche, so could you stop reading between the lines? =\

My PI is still screwed! (Yep, I'm in a state of denial right now. =3) I have neither clue nor relevant experience that can help with geog lecture test. -insert sheepish laughter here- To go off on a tangent, I get an image of hysterical sheep whenever I think of that phrase. Someone get me a shepherd dog. D:

April Fool's Day has gone by quietly this year! I'd rather have at least tried to stick post-it notes on people, but I forgot to prepare in advance. >< Mee Ling played a good prank on me though; it involved calling the IMH.

Harmonicas are rather deceiving. o_o They're secretly difficult to blow, and can produce notes from many different keys, apparently. Anyway, it'd be interesting to learn to play 细水长流。

Right. Back to work! >(

Physical stalking is a whole different world from virtual stalking.

Yes, this is referring to you, you one-heck-of-a stalker sister of mine! If you even dare go through half an attempt at ringing doorbells of people's houses which are located closer to mine than even IKEA is, I'll possibly disown you. It's really better if the people in question continue in their state of blissful ignorance. -insert coughing fit here-

Oh dear. Apparently I still look 14-15 years of age. D: Noooooooo~ Firstly, my mother's old friend looked at me and went, 'Wah so big already ah! What are you now, 14?'. o_o Secondly, a random uncle on the bus asked me if I came back from OBS recently, Pulau Ubin or Tekong? Third time's the charm! I held open the lift door for some random aunties, who then proceeded to ask, 'Just came back from OBS? It's very physical, isn't it?' To which it only felt right to reply that that incident took place years ago. =_= I shouldn't walk around in my OBS shirt so much.

Anyway. Still can't read Grace's blog! D:

Just a random reflection. o_o

For some reason, it feels like I've come an emotional full circle. ._. Wushu feels completely 'normal' again, as if there was not a choice to make in the first place. I could perhaps do without the perpetual state of pain, but life would feel like something important (and indescribable?) is lacking. The point being I felt, for an extended moment, that I wanted a change, a break from the inability to walk up stairs or run, but ironically I might have more trouble with such things without it. I seriously, earnestly contemplated leaving, but somehow or the other I just couldn't. (Still can't! D:) What's this, some off-centered masochism?

Let's stop talking sentimental here, shall we? xD Gosh stuff semi-related to wushu is so nostalgic, haha. (Seriously, 3 carrom boards? CCA room located at 4th floor?) Can't recall the last time we played 贴膏药~ For people who don't get why I'm randomly using Chinese, it's a game wushu seems to like to use as part of warm-ups sometimes. Basically, everyone stands around in a circle, then you appoint a catcher and a person to be chased, and they start running in the vicinity of the circle. It's just like catching except the person being chased can swap out by standing in front of someone else in the circle. x) Damn fun until you get tired, become the catcher, then get even more tired! But after a while someone nice will let you catch them then they take over being catcher. Aww. xD Oh, then it goes back to being damn fun again.

Yay Ching Yee I saved you from having to 打多三个套~ But apparently we owe 31(?) people a cup of teh peng each. ._. Around... $22 in total? Oh hey, it's still affordable! xD

Why does it feel like I've spent most of productivity this holiday on wushu? o_o And 'light' PT indeed! Ahaha I can feel my nerves complaining already.

Honestly, much of 'Women in Love' has yet to be read, and 'Tess' has only been half read. Then I've only just understood (I reckon!) econs, haha. Which means my homework has not been touched. -SIGH- Was there even anything to do for geog? I highly doubt there wasn't anything. Don't really wanna think about math. End of story. :D

... ... ... I've run out of things to write about again. (Proves my point. =_=)

Why did I decide to do CIP tomorrow again? Huh? D: Can't stand the way my mind works.

On a random note, people should keep quiet during lectures so we can all be released early. =_= Come on, you all have brains better than mine, don't you?

Stalking people's facebook pictures is fun, but stalking people's blogs is even more fun. x) Is it just me or are more and more people friend-locking their blogs? Eh Grace ah I can't read your blog! Neither can I read Susi's. D:

Bet everyone's derailed the train of linkage between the possibility of me posting and reality by now. :D